Angel VS Devil

Going NIE sOon

2010-05-07T23:05:00.002+08:00

Signed my contract with MOE.
Going to NIE for a year, but being bonded for 3 years after the course.
Up till now, everything still looks fine.
Getting married soon.. Hmmm... but I didn't feel the pressure like what others said..
Dear went overseas. Will only be back on next Tues or Wed.
Bored...
Recently very tired as I didn't have much sleep due to work.
Marking compositions is a very tiring thing.
Hmmm... How I wish there is a robot which can help me mark those compositions..!

3 Months of Work..

2009-09-30T23:46:00.002+08:00

Wow.. Can't believe it.. I had teach for 3 months..
But, is fun! I love it! [It's tiring too... Opps~]
Didn't have the spare time to write my blog..
So, it's obvious why I have time tonight to write my blog..
Cuz tomorrow is CHILDREN'S DAY!!!
Today, is Children's Day Eve..
And of cuz, we had celebration for the kids..
awwWWwww.. New teachers had to perform.. It's the school culture..
So, it's true.. I did perform today!
I acted as Jane the Class manager in a skit..
My pupils kept on calling me Jane after watching the skit..
I don't know whether should I gets angry, or just laugh at it..
But, in the end, I warned them not to call me Jane, CUZ I'M NOT JANE!!!!
If I'm Jane, then my bf should be PETER!!! Haha!!
Anyway, the school has a practice, which is, whatever performance it is, they will film it and post onto YouTube.. Opps!
Means, my performance will be on YouTube... SOON!!

Posting

2009-07-15T11:04:00.003+08:00

Finally after waiting for so many months, I had received the letter from MOE.
I am being posted to a primary school located in Jurong West..
Quite convenient actually but I was surprised that one of the subjects deploy to me is ENGLISH!!
I don't know whether to wish myself or the students-to-be good luck...

H1N1 Trama!

2009-07-05T23:37:00.003+08:00

Down with virus infection at my throat for more than a week.
Started feeling uncomfortable since last last Sat...
When to polyclinic on the following Monday to queue and see a doc...
WoW! Not surprise at all actually, there are 200 plus people in front of me waiting... I reached around 10am... and I left around 2pm... Hate the queue in polyclinic...
The doctor doesn't let me check if I'm contacted with H1N1 cuz he said there are too many patients waiting for the test.
I had sore throat, cough, running nose, headache, fever, bodyaching and yet, he said is ok.. No worries...
Up till Thursday, I was still half dead, so I went down to the clinic just below my block.
The infection worsen and attacked my airway... Yucks!
Was given antibiotics and bla bla bla... Alot of medicine...
Hmmm... As for now, slightly better... Not that pain at my throat but still coughing...
Headache is still there...
I haven't been out on the street for a week!
My dad afraid that I will bring those virus back with my weak immune system currently.
Haha! Actually I started getting sick after taking a very cramp train from vivo back to my house.
Maybe was from there, some irresponsible people who was sick, yet still board the train and spread the germs to me... =(
Haven't been going swimming for months too...! All because of the worsen H1N1 virus....
When will it end?? It's as if going to be end of the world...
Ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! SORRY GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAVEN'T BEEN SEEING YOU ALL FOR SUCH A LONG TIME!!!!
I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!

Opps, I did it again!

2009-06-23T14:16:00.002+08:00

Hahaha!! wow!! Now then I know, you guys are spying my blog!
Well... I'm waiting for 27 July, when I will start working... So, now quite free to blog...
Hmm... But now then I know, a blog, when entered into contest, can win $$$!!
gOsh... What's going on??? Don't work le... Just blog all day long can le... hehe!
Anyway, due to my complaint letter to Harvey Norman, one of the salesperson cannot be promoted... Opps... Well... He didn't explain to me and hence, this misunderstanding happened...
Why do I feels so guilty??

Bear on the Move!

2009-06-17T15:02:00.002+08:00

wOw.. I was like a bear during winter... Lazy to do things, any thing, at all!
Recently the most spectacular thing that I had done was, VISIT THE PC SHOW 2009!
I had spent alot of my energy in Suntec Convention Centre on the 1st day of PC show, which was on 11th June 2009, a thursday... I was there since 12pm till night 9pm... Erm... I don't know what I had really done down there... haha! But, I bought a desktop...! FINALLY...
Acer Aspire Prestige... The specs not bad and is much more cheaper than HP, although alot of ppl told me HP is better in terms of branding.. (I'm stubborn.. haha!)
I went down again to the PC show on Sat! haha!! That's why I said going to the PC Show 2009 was considered hard-working as I went down for 2 days!
As for now, I'm finding things to keep myself occupied... Also, waiting for my PC to arrive, which will be this coming Fri... 2 more days... ~.~
Also, waiting to start my job... aWwww.... Why time crawls??

Scary FYP

2009-03-09T12:27:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... Seems like my routine for this few days was:
Wake up.. Eat.. Project... Eat... Project... Eat... Project... Sleep...
Lucky Lucky!!!!
Will be handing in the draft this friday!!!!
HAVE A BREAK!!! Woho!!!
I was thinking, why do people want us to submit such a report?
Frankly speaking, when reader reads the report, they only read the important parts...
They won't spend the time reading those introduction, purpose, scope... Bla bla bla....
Sometimes, I felt that, waste my time of writing whereby people don't read... haha!
Nevermind them...
Haha!!!! Ending soon ending soon!!!!

Happy New Year!

2009-03-07T15:24:00.002+08:00

Haha! After so many months, I decided to post something on my blog, again.
Hmmm... Today I intended to do my FYP and try to do as much as possible....
BUT, I only did a small portion of it!
Finally changed my internet provider to Starhub after using another one for so many years!
The previous provider actually give me a great headache... The connection really yucks!
Now changed to starhub, hopes it is good.. =)
But, too bad.. My desktop can't connect to it as the internet was installed in my dad's study room. Now my poor little desktop has to use external wireless modem with the little low internet connect.
Hmmmm... So, what should I do with the old modem, plugs and everything???
I'm thinking of posting it on ebay and sell it... Hehe!!!
Hope I can sell it and earn afew bucks!

What is Love all about???

2008-11-19T21:25:00.003+08:00

What is love???
I thought LOVE is between 2 person and it needs 2 of them to get it nuture and grow??
It can't be just one said giving and the other taking...
One way communication, is that really workable for a relationship??
I don't think so...
Men tends to keep what they feels to themselves, expecting the girl to know what they actually is thinking.... Isn't it so?
Being angry at the guys isn't what girls enjoy...
Particularly me, I am tired of just getting unhappy in a relationship...
I had tried being happy and feeling happy in this relationship...
Indeed, I'm happy since the beginning of this relationship...
Everytime when I am being asked about my relationship, I gave a very positive answer...
Really, I thought I am always very happy in this relationship, regardless of the problems that had been happening recently... between us...
But, it doesn't goes as expected... At least, I feels so...
Comes to think about it, what do I achieved by throwing tantrum at him and nagging at him???
I think, is nothing... Everything goes back to square one again not long after....
Instead, it makes me feels more and more like adding pressure into this relationship....
I knew that, this problem between us getting serious since my birthday...
And, he doesn't wish that to happen too...
I admit that, I'm being selfish.... I care more about my own than his....
But comes to think about it again, I got tired when I throw tantrum at him, he will feels so too, right???
What for??? What has this relationship becomes???
I knew that, it's not everyday cloudy day when I'm with him... But, at least 3 days in a week, it is... At least 43% of my time with him, tends to turn into cloudy days...
What am I going to do???

Twist on my 22nd Birthday

2008-11-07T19:42:00.002+08:00

First of all, I want to thank all the MS Peepz for celebrating my birthday on 5th Nov with me, in Kushinbo...
And thanks for the crocos voucher! hehe! I finally bought a crocos... Haha!!!
So, my actual day of birthday, which is yesterday, 6th nov, it was planned to celebrate together with James....
But in the end, due to some unforesee circumstances, he had to leave me alone and left me with disappointment.
I know that he had no choice as some thing serious had happened to his family.
In the end, I spent my last few hours of my birthday in TTSH.
The atmosphere there was tensed...
Suddenly I realised that, we must really cherish the people around us as we won't know what will happened any moment....
Someone who is fit and healthy, can suddenly just landed up in hospital with caused still unknown...
I don't dare to enter into the CCU as I knew that I will definitely shed tears....
I did not want to add in additional sorrow to his family....
I don't know what can I do other than sitting there to accompany him....
A sudden thought of death, it can be so scary....
If I knew that I will definitely die, I will not want the doctor to try and rescue me....
If I knew that I can survive if the doctor try to save me, I don't mind going through all the torturing treatments and suffer for a period of time....
I really hope that the 2nd thought of mine can actually happen....
I should change my birthday wish....
I wish that, the person in hospital can wake up as soon as possible... Your family is waiting for you...
God bless you....

Is This What I Want?

2008-10-24T13:30:00.002+08:00

Had been busy with projects, tests, tuitions for the past few weeks...
Finally this 3 days, I had some rest from projects and tests... But, I still have those tuitions....
Hmmm... Being in a relationship is a very difficuit module to learn...
To be in a relationship, is to find happiness...
But, along this path, there's alot of things that makes me sad...
It totally depends on whether I can hold on to it and pass all this barriers...
But, I'm afraid, I can't as I am a person who give up easily....

Fear....

2008-10-11T13:23:00.002+08:00

I'm fear..... Fear of the arrival of this evening....
Yesterday midnight, I drank the cough syrup before sleeping cuz I'm having mild sore throat...
Today early in the morning, my dad came in and started scolding me...
But I didn't have the energy to talk to him too much cuz the medicine effect is still theere...
Around 11 plus, my sis called my hp and I got scolded again!
Well.. this time round, I was awaken by her...
I had left a bundle of brand new polo tees at the back of the car....
And she had drove it into our neighboring country....
Gosh... She was so pissed cuz the custom officer wanna tax her on those clothes....
So... No choice but to pay... My fault for leaving the clothes in the boot...
Then, I walked to the kitchen to clarify with my dad what had happened this morning...
My house was on fire becuz of faulty of power socket....
He said that even I was burnt to death, also won't be waken by the fire...
Gosh... I drank medicine, of cuz out of conscious....
Then, I told him about the polo tees that I had left in the boot of the car and had been taxed...
HE STARTED SCOLDING ME AGAIN....
He asked me why I don't want to bring them up to the house, instead I had so much money and wanna it to be tax unnecessarily...
For goodness sake, I'm not the dumb... If I remember, of cuz I will bring them up...
But the problem is, I HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT TOTALLY, NOT THAT I PURPOSELY DON'T WANT TO BRING THEM UP!!!!
Haiz... Later around evening time, when my sis comes back to Singapore...
She might be taxed by Singapore Custom... Argh!!!!
I'm worried... Fear... Not becuz of the money that I had to pay her back on the unneccessary tax... BUt, the scolding that I will get....

Stranger....

2008-10-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

Went for a total of 5 tuitions today....
I think my illness got from bad to worse...
Headache become so serious that I feel as if I'm floating in the air when I'm walking...
So, met him for dinner after my tuition in Westmall...
I'm so grumpy... and I decided not to have dinner...
Well... I think he got pissed off in the train and said something that hurts me alot...
The moment I heard what he said, I felt that, he suddenly become a stranger to me....
He had misinterpret my words and said it in such a unpleasant way....
Out of a sudden, automatically, I had switched to protective mode....
I tends to fear of talking... Walking closer.... And even looking at him....
While eating my bowl of porridge, I didn't even lift my head up...
After eating, I just feels like hiding myself somewhere....
So, headed back home and we just say good bye at the lift....
I'm still feeling very uncomfortable....
My head is spinning like mad and I had been trying my best to walk normally when with him....
I got home and took the medicine and went down to the clinic again....
After quite awhile while waiting for my turn, I smsed him and told him that I'm at the clinic...
I thought he had already went up the train and headed back home... But NO... He was still somewhere nearby... So, he walked back to the clinic and looked for me...
I tooked the medicine from the clinic and once again, he sent me to the lift, and just say good bye...
My heart sunk....
I realised... I dunno what I want....
I want him to be by my side.. Yet, I dun wan him to waste his time on me....
I want him to care for me... Yet I dun wan him to do so much things for me, feeling that it's not worth it....
First time in this relationship, or should I say, first time in the past 3 years, I had never "transformed" my eyes into the condition like what it is now...
But I know that, he started to get angry at me...
It's time for me to start to prevent myself from dropping tears like now....
It's my fault today...

Past Two Weeks....

2008-10-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

More than 2 weeks didn't update my blog...
Since I came back from Tioman, didn't get to rest my mind...
I came back last Wednesday... And my tuition continues again....
Subsequent days, were busy with my uncle thing... He went into hospital...
And passed away on Saturday morning...
So, the whole funeral lasted for 3 days...
Monday morning sent him off to Mandai Cementery...
Since that day, I didn't really feel well...
Monday night, started suffering sore eyes...
Tuesday onwards, gastric feel so uncomfortable....
Keep farting and gastric keeps turning...
Until thursday, I become so restless...
No energy at all...
Then comes friday....
Actually meeting James and gonna go for lunch and dinner...
End up, I kept on diarrhoea-ing and my gastric turn upside down... And kept having the feeling of puking...
James pulled me to consult a doctor... Then I realised, I'm suffering from food poisoning...
I tried backtracking my memory and see what had I ate that caused this....
Hmmm... I think most probably is the sandwich that I bought in the bread shop in CCK station...
The egg taste abit funny... I ate it all becuz, previous few times when I bought the same sandwich and eat, the taste of the egg although abit sour, but, I didn't feel anything after eating...
This time round, my immune system cannot take it le...
Up till now, I still haven't recover at all.. Not even a little...
No one beside me to take care of me... SAD....

Opps... Busy Week!

2008-09-15T11:41:00.002+08:00

Hehe!!! Haven't been updating my blog for awhile...
By the time I reached home, it was late already... haha!!! Got a car to drive around is, FUN!!!!
Although sometimes will got lost on the road, but, I HAVE A MAP!!!! wOho!!!
Over the weekend, had watched the Man U VS Liverpool match... haha!!!
Munk was so funny on his way home... Cuz me and him were both wearing Man U jersey... haha!!! Must hid ourselves... hOho!!!
So, yesterday, which was Mid Autumn Festival...! Tuition till 8pm and took a cab down to Kranji Park to celebrate with my family... haha!!!
Had BBQ and Steamboat... haha! I ate alot till my sis kept asking me... " You many days didn't eat already huh??" haha!!!
The soup was nice and the prawn was good!!!!!
Haha!!! So, today is Monday!!!
And, I gonna meet James for dinner...! In Carousel!!! hohoho!! is BufFet!!!
Haha!!! Hope I won't become a pig after my 1 week break! haha!

Driving Talent

2008-09-06T01:01:00.002+08:00

Well well... As predicted, I got my driving licence!!! (Opps..! Too haolian liao...!)
Hahaha!!!! Actually, really thanks you guys for the encouragment on that day!!!
And also, thanks Munk for forwarding me the sms that I had sent to him afew days ago... hOho!!! I think all MS peepz knew the content of that sms... haha!!!
Oh Oh! MOST IMPORTANTLY,
James, thanks for accompanying me from morning till night... Thanks for the support!!!
Anyway, that day was really heng...
Morning I met James for breakfast... I had a McMuffin Egg Meal... haha!!! I love it!!!
Before I went in to Mac, the weather was SUNNY and very fine!!!
While half way thru my breakfast, it started raining... HEAVILY!!!
After my breakfast, the rain still there.... So, to prevent my shoes to be soak in rainwater, we took a cab over to BBDC...
When we reached BBDC, it becomes drizzling... Awhile later, the rain stopped... haha!!!
So, we stood at the training ground and look at how others drove... I'm damn nervous at that moment and James teased me... Uncontrollably, I punched him... Opps... hehe!! SORRY FOR THAT PUNCH!!! hehe!!!
So, when it's time to proceed for my warm-up session, James went to the canteen and wait for me while I go over to the waiting area for my warm-up session...
Had my warm-up session and the car's condition... Not bad lah.... haha!!!
After the warm-up, I felt so hot... Very nervous.... Whole body giving off heat... haha!!!
My instructor directed me to the waiting area... Waiting for the tester to "fetch" me for the test...
Hehe!!! The period of waiting, is machiam waiting to go for death penalty... haha!!
2 testers came in and asked for the other testees... But, they have to wait for their test...
Next, another tester came in and called for my name... Without telling me anything, he just walked off... haha!!! I PANICKLY ran out of the waiting room and followed him... He didn't even tell me what is my test route until I asked him... hohoho!!!
He is not a bad tester...
The first station was parallel parking... hehe! My car stalled while proceeding over to park my car... hehe!! But, didn't have any demerit points for that... hehe!!!
Then, is S-course... Followed by slope... Then, was directional change and crank course... Lastly, vertical parking... EVERYTHING NICE NICE LAH! HAHAHA!!!
Proceed on to road... And I got test route 3... hehe!!! Overall, 10 demerit points....
And most importantly, I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!! I GOT MY DRIVING LICENCE!!!!
HEhe!!! So, after passing my test, I laugh and giggled for the rest of the day.... hehe!!!
We went for movie, WALL E, and had fish head curry for dinner... wOw..! VERY FULL arh!!!
So, today, FRIDAY, went to school for project meeting.... haha!!! Also, busy haolian-ing to Munk my licence... hOho!!!
Well... Today had James accompanied me for the rest of the day... hehe!!
On my way home, my dad called and asked me to buy Char Kway Teow and Carrot cake....
Hehe!!! So, sinfully, I came home, and ate together with them... To conclude, my diet for the day, FAILED....

机会

2008-08-29T00:05:00.003+08:00

Hehe! In the afternoon, when I walked to the kitchen, towards the basin, I saw a frozen chicken.... On its packaging, it writen "LUCKY CHICKEN".... Haha!!!
Yah... the chicken was indeed a lucky one....
Lucky to have me eating it... hohohohoho!!!
Was watching drama, 命中注定我爱你....
One of the sentence inside the show made me had a deep impression...
机会就像小偷。。。
它来的时候静悄悄，你没发现到。。。
当它已离开时，你才发现你重要的东西不见了。。。
Anyway, who knows where can I get confidence???
Anything I can do????
Argh!!!! SOS!!!

Why today rain again??

2008-08-26T22:19:00.004+08:00

Slept around 3am this morning and woke up around 11 to prepare for school....
Feels so sleepy still... Maybe becuz I took the medicine before I slept... And the giddiness still there...
So, dragging myself to school with my head spinning and still, my stomach cramp-ing...
In class, I can't concentrate well... My brain still asleep...
Managed to get something into my brain during Intermodal lecture...
So, went off to tuition at my Cousin's house...
While half way thru the tuition, my dad called to her house and looked for me...
So funny... Normally he will call my hp... Today, he chose to call their house...
He didn't even try to call my hp before calling over to their house!
Obvious, he don't believe that I'm going over to my cousin's house for dinner!
Hate it hate it hate it!
Well... He called over and scolded me for not closing the window... And Pillow was totally drenched...
I'm not feeling well and was in a hurry this morning so I forgotten to close the living room window lor...
So, I know that, when I go home, I will tio 2nd round nagging again... So, don't feels like going home...
After tuition, I ate in my uncle's house and after that, we make mooncake!
Wow! Nice! Redbean mooncakes! Snow skin de! Hehe!! I love it!
Finished making these mooncakes and it's time to go home... So reluctantly, I proceed home... Haiz... As expected, the moment I stepped into my house, the radio started....
I'm so moody!!!!!! Why can't I have peace when I reach home???
I don't feel like going home... But, I can't do that always... Cuz, the nagging will be worsen...
Haiz... Dun feels like, but have to... =(

Cyborg She

2008-08-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

Cramp the whole day.... Didn't feels like going to school in this condition... haha!
In the evening, went down town for a movie with Munk...
Before movie, we had sushi at Suki Sushi.... Hehe! Longed for Japanese food liao!
Watched Cyborg She... It's a nice movie!!!! wOw!!!
Really really very nice!!!! Haha! Munk loved the girl alot sia... haha!!!
sO, after the movie, under the phyco-ing of devil munk, I had Green Tea M-Furry...
aRgh!!! Stomach already cramp like mad... Cramp le still eat icecream...
The pain increasing more and more... argh!!!!
haha! nvmm... no choice... my fault tat I cannot resist the temptation and phyco-ism from Munk!!!
Oh ya... Found a very fun place!!!!
wOw!!! I will go there one day to play... hehe!
But, it's an expensive entertainment... hOho!!!!
But, I STILL WANT TO TRY!!!! =P
Oh ya oh ya!!! and, 我要失业了!!!!
Haiz... Most of my kids gonna stop tuition in October after their PSLE and O level...
Awwww..... Die.....

Sleepless Night...

2008-08-25T01:32:00.003+08:00

Ahhhh... Can't get to sleep... Stomach so crampy... Awww...

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3 Days....

2008-08-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

This few days, had been spending time with James....
Time seems to fly so fast when we are together...
As if time is not enough... haha!
Today, he went overseas to work liao... Awwwwww....
Although only 3 days, I still miss him...
But... He had called me just now.... hehe!!
Although is a short conversation, but, still sweet enough!! Hehe!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! See..!!!
Now time seems to crawl... Haiz.....
Anyway, today went over to Roy's shower....
He grow fatter and fatter each day... haha!!!
He resembles more like his dad as he grows...

It's Friday again!!!

2008-08-22T11:43:00.002+08:00

Yeh!!! It's friday! It's weekend again... hehe!
Just finished watching Fantasy Couple... Not a bad drama...
Now started watching Moonlight Resonance Season 2...
It's nice!!!! Temptation again... hoho!
Hmmm... Nothing much happened recently... haha!
Tuesday went over to Chinatown to look at information on tour...
After that went to eat 砂锅饭.... NICE!!! HEHE!!! HAd too much craving for food recently...
Then followed by durians... Deadly combi... Throat dead...
haha!
Yesterday, which is Thursday, went to eat Pizza with Munk...
Oh gosh... I can feel the fats accumulating around my tummy! haha!!!

Funny Weather!

2008-08-18T23:18:00.003+08:00

Hmmmm.... Today the weather super funny...
Sunny, then rain... Stop raining... Becomes sunny again... Now, it rains again...
I had been sneezing from the moment I got to school...
On and off... It comes and goes... haha!!! Finally, it stopped... Just only... hehe!!
Hope it don't comes back again....
This few days, didn't really blog... Cannot find the time...
Hehe!!! Friday and Sat, went over to James' place and we had dinner together...
Dinner is prepared by... JAMES!!! haha! I'm just the "supervisor"... Hoho!!!
We watched Olympics together....
Although just dinner and watching TV together, but, I enjoy the moments that we spend together... =)
So, on Sun, I went over to my sis' house and he went over with me...
The intention was to bake cookies but end up, we were eating food there and didn't do anything... But, we had celebrated my sis' birthday together! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Oh ya... As for my previous post, I think I had some misunderstanding on my own feelings...
Sometimes, when I feel happiness is around me, I will also have those "心酸" feelings...
So, I think, those are towards +ve feelings... hehe!!! I'm too obsess into HAPPINESS FACTORY... haha~~~

我想要说出口，但是说不出口

2008-08-14T00:31:00.005+08:00

Had tennis game in school and I almost drove Munk crazy during the game... haha!
Opps... Sorry!!!
My wrist feels quite painful after the game and it's so numb now...
Anyway, after the game, we went to Jurong Point and had KFC...
While eating... We talked about afew things, all about relationship....
First of all, we both come to a consensus that, we have quite good faith in Sinz and Wei Quan's relationship... 加油加油加油!!!
Next, is about the old topic... 女人送上门，男人都会要... Too difficult to write in details in my blog... haha!!!
Then, is about why people get into relationship.... I was thinking about it too...
In a relationship, definitely there will be things that we will feels hurt....
Will the happy moments be able to overcome those hurtful things?
In the past, I feels that, why people are so dumb to get into a relationship when they knew that will definitely hurt them at times....
But now I realised, when there is someone whom I feels that is worth it appears in front of me, then, I will automatically become that dummy.... And, I'm a dummy now... Opps...
I feels that, 在一段感情里，伤心是难免的。。
如果我们是注定在一起的，那么，在雨过天晴的时候，我们之间的感情会更加坚固。。
但是，好的结果跟坏的结果，通常就那一线之差。。。
一旦做错了决定，一切美好的事物就从此失去了。。。
如果我们所做的是对的，那么，我们就慢慢的迈向幸福的道路。。。
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Had been together for a month le...
Recently had lesser and lesser things to talk about...
Silent moment seems like surrounding us....
Quite alot of silent calls....
Suddenly, I become silent too....
I dunno what to say, or maybe, how to say things that I want to say....
Automatically, without me knowing the exact reason, my heart starts to feel........
Water just flows upwards to my eyes....
As usual, I also dunno why....
It's not that he is not a nice person... He is nice....
But sometimes, some actions or words makes me feels that I'm being push away....
Maybe he don't mean it, or should I say, I knew that he don't mean it... But...
What to do? I don't have a remote control to stop my heart from aching...
Feelings are something I couldn't control and it is what I want to control the most....
Feelings makes me uncontrollably fall in love....
and it uncontrollably makes me feels so 幸福 at times....
and it also uncontrollably makes me feels sad sometimes....
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This few days, I just don't feels like talking about how I feels over varies issues....
I think I'm just trying to avoid... I'm just 逃避-ing over those issues....
I just feel like escaping.... But to where? For what reason? I also dunno...
I feels like I'm dreaming... Can someone pull me back to reality and face everything...?

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Oh ya... Photos taken on 12 Aug...

1st Month

2008-08-12T23:14:00.003+08:00

First of all...

Happy 1st Month James....

Times flies and we had been together for a month le...

I had great time with you, thanks!

Next, today not feeling well... Gastric started to give me problem since morning...

I'm physically and mentally drained up...

Didn't have much energy left, especially after the argument with that Capt. lecturer...

Haiz... And, too many things flowing into my mind and I'm trying to get my thoughts flow...

Devil always make people have sudden thoughts on certain issues and is just 一线之间, to make the right or wrong decision...

As usual, this kind of sudden thoughts came into my mind and I have to control myself from saying things I don't meant to say....

Argh... Brain cells dead.... Opps...!

The first antidote is to get that Capt. lecturer out of my life..!

Sinful Sunday

2008-08-10T21:43:00.012+08:00

awwwww.... My Sunday had passed very sinfully!
Chocolates all the way... Now felt so heaty... Awwww....
Itchy mouth and itchy hand... Took the chocolates and ate non-stop... Argh!
So, finally got hold of the photos taken during the Paintball session... Haha!
I was laughing like mad when I saw this photo... Dunno why would I have this funny reaction when Sher took it... Opps...!

Haha! Ok... Should start talking about the beginning of that day... 8th August 2008...
We went to Swensen to celebrate Potato's birthday... HEre's the photo.. And, Ah Dai, u didn't even tell me that my face had been covered up by someone's head!!!

Ok... Enough of Arron's face... Haha!
Back to my PaintBall game....
Before we started our war.... We had a photo taken...

During half time......

After Game....

And here, is the powerful wound I had...

Lonely and Scared....

2008-08-09T01:05:00.002+08:00

What a weird timing for me to blog... I was actually asleep around 11pm but was awaken by Pillow's barking since 12 midnight... He started barking at that time and I woke up.. I am alone at home cuz my family went to Malaysia for holiday... My sis is still not back yet and I don't think will be any sooner...
Pillow barked non-stop and it gets louder and louder and he also started whining... I'm so frightened... I don't dare to open my eyes, nor walk over to turn on the lights... Gosh..! My stomach started aching then! All becuz of the 1 big tube of ice cream that I had took as my dinner... I tried to tolerate with the aching and does not want to get out of my bed... But the aching get worsen... So, I pick up my phone... Haiz... 12.40am... Who can I call at this hour and will still be awake, and won't scold me for calling at this hour...? I feels like calling over to J, but afraid that he was already asleep.... Don't want to wake him up in the middle of the night for this kind of stupid thing... haiz....
When I open my phone, I saw Munk's sms... And he had just smsed over not long ago... So, I called over... Haha! Obviously, he said that I very funny...
"Just stand and walk over to turn on the lights lor... "
When I on the lights of my room and opened the door, so suay! Saw a lizard...!
Hehe! Managed to get over to my dad's room to use his toilet... Paisei arh Munk to call at this hour... Called over to 壮胆nia...
The lizard really scare the hell out of me sia!!!! Everytime..... Everytime when I am left alone at home, all the lizards like to come out... Why must they do this to me?!?!?!?! Why must they come to scare me when I am alone, with no one beside me to protect me???
I always says that I prefer to be alone at home as it is peace and quiet... But, there is also bad side about being alone at home... I have to face all the "dangers" and "fears" alone...
Frankly speaking, I hate to be alone at home... But, neither do I like to have my family at home... There's a reason behind it anyway...
Haiz... Where is my 避风港? With peace and no lizards....
Felt so lonely now and scared...
How I wish that I have my elder sis beside me....
Someone to put me to bed when I feels frighten...
Someone to hoax me when I am awaken by nightmares....
Someone to assure me that I'm safe....
Someone to protect me even though she herself will be in danger....
Someone who will sleep beside me to makes me feel security....
Comes to think about it, I suddenly miss my elder sis and my mom so much...

My Best Buddy, Fat Munk!

2008-08-08T11:26:00.004+08:00

Just now I was chatting with Ah Dai online.... So, he asked me, when Munk and I started to get so close together? What had happened that made our bonding so close....?
So, I tried to recall... Hmmmm....
During Year 1, we were just friends.... Normal friends.... I can even say that, we do consider as those hi-bye friends...
Things started changing when we got to Year 2 Sem 1....
We took the same elective module, Urban Planning and Environment... This elective ends at 8.30pm...
So, everytime, I can say that, almost every lesson of this elective, we would leave early and went out together...
1) Ajisen Ramen in IMM... haha! We had the thoughts of attempting to climb over the fence in the middle of the road... But, in the end, we still choose to walk the overhead bridge...
2) Ding Tai Feng in Raffles City... That's the most frequent dinner place of ours...
3) Swensen and Pastamania in Westmall... haha! Cuz he has direct bus back to his house...
Still got many other places... But very random lah...
Through all the eating and talking, we got to know each other more and more and we have alot of exchange of ideas through argu-ing...
Yah... We argue alot and that's how we communicate... Our way of communication is through firing... Opps...!
Our taste of food are quite common and also, our preference of movies are similar...
That makes us having more things to talk about and to hang out...
But, our bonding was strengthened and firmed during Year 2 Sem 2....
Something bad happened in my Uni Life and Munk was there....
He accompanied me through that hell-liked semester...
He provide me with a listening ear, listening to all my sorrows, mumbling, nagging, shouting, bla bla bla... With no complains...
And he console me too... But in the form of violence... That's how he care for people... haha!!!
And through that incident, I knew that, strongly knew that, he is the one... The person whom I can really trust... That's when I classified him as my Closest Buddy...
He knew almost all my problems that I'm facing... And he tried his best to help me...
He knew me too well...
Going to Norway, of cuz had enhanced our friendship, and in addition, strengthened the friendship between me and other MS Peepz... =D
To Munk:
Sometimes, becuz u understand me too well, I couldn't hide myself...
Sometimes, cuz u know how I feels but others don't, makes me just feels like crying but not becuz I'm sad...
But felt so relief that at least, there are still someone who knows me, and understand me...
Thank you so much...
I had now found my own happiness and are working hard on it...
But, our friendship will still be there... =) Nothing change ya!
Once again, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!
*Stupid Ah Dai... Made me recall all this... Just want to blog them down... Just in case I forget everything 1 day.... Opps!*

Paint Ball = Pain Ball

2008-08-07T22:27:00.003+08:00

Hm... Nothing much happened in the morning, except that I went driving, and had forgotten all about checking of blindspots... Haha! After that, went the direction back home...
When I reached home, I put down all my barang barang and headed to NTUC, intending to buy some soba to make lunch for him... But, OOS in NTUC!!! Haha! In the end, empty handed and went back home... But, I still managed to crack my head and thought of something to cook for him... Half way through, I realised that there were no eggs in the fridge... Argh! Made 1 more trip down to Cheers to get some... Took me around an hour plus to finish making... Hehe!!! But, worth it ba... haha!!!
Then I rush down to Jurong Point to meet Mr Potato and gang for lunch... By the time I reached, they had already finished their food... So, I didn't eat anything there... But then, they wanted to go Swensen... So, we went to North Point and into the Swensen... I then realised that they wanted to go Swensen as they intended to buy cake there and celebrate for him! I thought that they were so nice to me and bring me to Swensen for lunch... -.-
Around 3pm, we reached Orchid Country Club....!
YEH!!! FINALLY I GOT TO PLAY PAINTBALL!!! So excited at that moment!!!
When done with all the necessary documents and briefing, the war was about to began!
wOw!!! Fully geared up! Haha!!!
The whole game was really fun and exciting... And, when the paintball hits, it is really very very pain...
Munk got 1 on his butt, done by Sinz...
J got one on his knee, done by Munk...
And, J got one on his arm by me....
Hmmm.... Baohua got one on her head, by me...
And Amelia got 1 on her chest, by me...
I got 1 on my wrist, done by Mr Potato...
And one on the back of my thigh... Most probably by Munk...
I have 2 pictures on my wound on my thigh but internet connection is rather slow today... Will post them tomorrow, inclusive of all the photos taken in Swensen and in TAG Paintball!
OH ya... Not to forget, MR Potato is a good player... He can really get the box to the home ground most of the time... Or, should I say, EVERYTIME?! haha!!!
So, all of them went back home after the game... J & me went to ChongPang for dinner... Had fish soup with rice + Wu xiang... hehe!!! Not bad the food down there...
So, there was still some drizzling but we headed to Khatib there for a walk... haha!
Had a look at the Prawn pond in the park, and also, examined a very strange but cute looking tree... The tree grows in the way that it looks so cute... Short and fat... Haha!
Actually I intended to take a picture of it.. But, given that it was night time, and during this scary period of time, I think, next time then I will take the picture of it and post on my blog... haha!!!
When reached home, I DIY some spa for my face... haha! Now I felt so refreshing...! wOw!!! hehe! Long time since I really do some exfoliating and put on a facial mask... hehe!!!
I gonna enjoy the cool weather now and go to bed... GOOD NITE!!!

Why so Tired?

2008-08-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

Yawn... Went driving in afternoon, 1220 lesson.. But, I'm late! haha!! Well.. Not that I had anything to do before that... IS just that, the weather was too hot and I was so reluctant to leave my house... Today had learnt 3-point turn and did all the revision for circuit... Hm... The instructor for today and yesterday was the same guy... This guy, is the one whom I dislike since the start of my driving lesson... But, he treated me very well for this 2 days... Abit weird sia the feeling... Suddenly talk in such a gentle way... SCARY... Haha! But, he is the best instructor out of the 6 of them... Haha~! Tomorrow also have driving lesson early in the morning... haha! Good Luck to me! hohoho!
After my driving, I went back home... On my way back, I went to NTUC and bought a can of Chick Peas... And, crazy enough, I bought 1 big bar of Cadbury Chocolate, Fudge Brownie, Ritter Sports Chocolate Mousse and Cadbury Bites.... The moment I reached home, I heat up the Chick Peas and it taste, SUPER WONDERFUL!!! WoW! Love it!!! Then, I ate the Cadbury Bites... and, WOW!!! Very nice!!!! After that, I ate the Fudge Brownie and, deadly... It's so delicious!!! Lastly, the Ritter Sports... Cannot believe it... IT also taste so delicious!!! Opps... Ate alot of chocolate today... Not becuz I'm unhappy, just that I have the urge to taste these chocolates cuz I didn't try before... haha!!!
After junking in all this, I felt so so so so so FULL!!! And again, very reluctantly, I got out of my house and went for tuition... The sun is blasting like mad... AND SUPER DUPER HOT..!!! After tuition, I came home for dinner... And follow by another tuition... Tot that I had finished all my events of the day by 8.30pm... But opps... I forgotten that I had to spend some time with Pillow... I brought him for a short walk till Yew Tee Park and walked home... When reached home, I bathed for him and it took me an hour to blow dry his hair... Haha!!
Dunno why... But, even though I slept till 10 plus (not very good sleep although), I felt so tired from 2pm onwards.... Really dozed off and almost fell off the chair... I think maybe becuz the sun is sucking all my energy... haha!!! Opps! =P
I'm watching a korean drama now... and, there's a phrase said by the girl in the drama, which I think is quite true... Which is, 给别人的伤痛，要自己尝试才知道有多痛....

Things are getting BETTER!

2008-08-05T22:58:00.004+08:00

Yesterday night, when I login to my BBDC account, I realised that I was not able to complete my lessons in time before the test! Panick till whole night didn't sleep well..
Today went down to BBDC and seeked for help after my driving lesson and I managed to get it settled, but I have to skip afew of the lectures for the next 2 weeks... Haiz... What to do? My fault for being so last minute in booking the lessons... =P
Leaving BBDC, I headed back to CCK and went to develop some photos of J & me... While waiting for the photos, I went over to the Card Replacement Office in CCK to get replacement of my EZlink... Finally!!! The personnal from the hotline office is efficient and good! She helped me get it done and I appreciate alot! Thanks ya!
So, I went back to collect the photos and went straight down to Tanjong Pagar to pray... My grandparents and my mom... Particularly, I missed my grandma... Haiz... I still feels so sad when I think of her everytime....
I met J around 1 plus for lunch... We was thinking whether to go Cineleisure or Grand Cathay for movie... End up we decided to go Cineleisure... But I dunno why, both of us were so sotong that we alighted at Douby Ghaut Station and walked to PS... When we were in PS, J asked me why were we in PS... Then I realised that we went to the wrong place...
No choice but had to walk to CineLeisure... haha!! UNDER THE SUPER HOT WEATHER... haha!!!
Finally, we reached Cine and bought the tix for X File... While waiting for the movie to start in 1 plus hour time, we sat at the seats available outside the Theatre hall...
I somehow dare J to find me a pen and paper immediately... And he just relaxly digged them out from his bag... No choice, but have to give him my blog add as promised... Next, I dare him again to get me a scissors on the spot... He stood up and went over to the counter of the arcade and borrowed a scissors from them! His action was so funny that I laugh out very loud.... Opps!
Hehe! With the scissors, I took out the photo that I had developed this morning and cut it... The photo was for him to put in his wallet... Also, mine... haha!!!
The compartment of his wallet for him to put photo is somehow small... I got to edit them before developing them... haha!!! Opps... No complain...
*J will read about my complains soon...!!! shhhh.... *
Doing alot of funny stuffs... haha! Then went in for movie...
Hmmmm... Maybe like what Mr Potato said... My expectation for things are all very low...
I feels that, Mummy is nice.... X File still watchable, although I still cannot get the full picture of the movie... haha!!!
The movie ended at 7pm, and it was dinner time! We went over to Borders and had a "stroll" inside and also, Shaw Isetan supermarket.... Then, we walked to Newton Circus for dinner...
We had 3 dishes but, I STILL VERY FULL!!!!
Most importantly, what I had done today was, I GAVE J MY BLOG ADDRESS cuz I promised so...
Hmmm... Dunno is it good or not... But we had an agreement... He only can start visiting my blog when we are together for a month old... So, J, if you are looking at this post now, and it's before 12 August, then, you break your promise!!!
If you are reading it now, and it's 12 August, what I would like to say is, you keep your promise.... And, 我喜欢你... Hehe!!! Shy liao lah!!! haha!!!
Ahhhhhh!!!!! Having the thoughts that he will read all my stupid thoughts in my past few entries, I so shy liao lah!!!!

Requirement of A Good Listening Ear....

2008-08-04T23:42:00.003+08:00

First day of school of my last academic year...
Not a good start for the day....
The moment I got to the train station, I encountered problem with my EZlink card...
Card Reading Error and it can't read my card...
I went to the Passenger Service in CCK for help but it was useless...
They can't do anything... I was asked to approach the Ticketing Office...
But, do TransitLink knew that, from the moment the train start servicing, there will be people using the train... And definitely, there will be people who will encounter problem in using their "hi-tech" train system...
And, by having "help desk" available at the Passenger Service that only knows how to push their "helpless" customers to the Ticketing Office, which only opens at 12pm, is totally useless...
Do they knew that, people need help... Who knows how their translink system works? It was quite funny for the Translink Officer who was sitting inside their comfortable air conditioned Passenger Service Office, to ask the helpless customer, "do you know what's wrong with your card?"..... Who is working for translink?? Who should be the one to know the answer???
It's ok... End up I bought an Adult EZLink card from the Passenger Service counter, which cost me $15, with only a credit of $7... It was abit angry as I was supposed to be using my CONCESSION CARD!!!! And now, I had to pay $15 for a card that I wasn't supposed to pay...
After my lesson, I went over to the Ticketing Office in Boon Lay, and I was once again being "kick" to the Translink Hotline... That was not the first time.. ACtually, my card started to have problem since start of this year... I had done quite alot of stuff before to get it solve, and I was being kicked from Passenger Service counter, to Ticketing Office, to Translink Hotline, and back to Ticketing Office... And the outcome was, BACK TO SQUARE ONE... MY card is still having problem...
Enduring with it for 6 months, it finally turned from bad to worse... So, no choice..., Have to get it solved no matter what this time... I called the Hotline in the afternoon, and they kept telling me my card has no problem... Yah... BUT, THE FACT IS, I CAN'T USE IT!!!! Who can tell me why??? The Hotline personnel then suggested that I get my card replaced with a new one, but I have to pay $11... I'm more than the merrier to pay if I can get my EZlink card done once and for all!
Happily after watching movie in Bukit Batok, I purposely went down to Jurong East MRT Station, hoping to get my card done! Queueing at the Card Replacement Office, and finally, it's my turn... I thought today will be the last day of dealing with this lousy EZlink... But, the officer said that she can't do the replacement for me! At first, the officer told me that my card was being BLACKLISTED, and I need to call the HOTLINE... Listening to this, I got abit pissed off... THE HOTLINE PERSONNAL TOLD ME THAT MY CARD WAS TOTALLY FINE BY LOOKING AT THEIR SYSTEM!!!! Gosh... Am I Mas Selamat??? Do I look like him?? Why would I get blacklisted for no reason??!! She then said that she need a valid reason for the replacement... For goodness sake, I TOLD her that, I CAN'T USE IT!!! Isn't that a very very valid reason? She thought I'm damned rich and just want to have a collection of Tertiary EZlink??? She just say she can't do the replacement... I notice something which is, they will try ways to push the problem from one to another...
I told her that, Ok, I call immediately and get back to her.. And she happily told me that the office is closing in 10 minutes time and there is nothing she can do... And, she made it so obvious that, she just want to go home and don't want to help me cuz it is about 6pm...
I called the hotline again with a pot of boiling blood flowing in my body! I complained to the Officer on the phone as if no body business! Do they know how much money I had spent just a day which is not in my transport budget? Do they know how expensive it is to travel to and fro with adult fare? I used up all the $7 credit just in a day... Argh... The Hotline Offier told me that I can have my card replaced with no valid reason, the only thing is that I need to pay $11... EVEN IF IT'S $50, I'm willing to pay to get all this CRAP FIXED.... Argh...
I just hope that Translink can revise on their system and also, their staffs, especially their knowledge on translink system and also, their attitude...
Enough of all this complain... Spoilt my mood for the day... TOTALLY!!!
After all this crap, I met him for dinner...
When we met, I thought I could just talk to him about what had happened today... Just want him to provide me with a listening ear... But, while talking half way through, when I asked him where are we heading, he said that, I was "chanting" and he had no chance to asked me where I want to go... For goodness sake, I just need someone to provide me with a listening ear, for me to pour out my anger and sorrow... But, to him, I'm chanting.... 念经....
I stopped all my words about what had happened this morning that moment onwards...
I started to become quiet for the rest of the day... Already feels like crying the whole day today...
After hearing him say that I'm 念经-ing, I felt more sad... My heart felt quite hurt.... But I managed to control my tears for the rest of the day....
Sometimes, guys cannot blame their girlfriend for not telling them things or when their girlfriend choose to 诉苦 with someone else instead of them....
That's becuz, girls always feels that, they do not want their boyfriend to have bad impression of them... In any sort of ways... What girls need is just, a listening ear... Listening with your heart....
Even though my heart feels so hurt, I still couldn't open my mouth and tell him that he had hurt me... Cuz I do not want to hear him apologising to me again... Not that I'm petty... Is just that, hearing him saying Sorry to me, hurts too....
I felt extremely tired today...

A Wonderful Day before School Reopens...

2008-08-03T03:56:00.004+08:00

This few days, quite lazy to blog... hehe!

SATURDAY, 2nd AUGUST... TODAY!!!
Hmmm... Woke up late for my 1st tuition of the day... And subsequently, I'm late for my 2nd tuition... hehehe!!!
I met him after my tuition around 3 plus and we went over to TCC for a meal... Consider as LUNCH + HIGH TEA + DINNER... We left TCC when the sky turns dark... During our stay in TCC, we had a few topics in our conversation... But, mainly is talking about our opinion in certain things.... One of it is about marriage... I'm really fear of marriage and I'm afraid of getting into one... I dunno whether can he understand how afraid I am about marriage... And instead of being disaappointed about me saying that I afraid of marriage, I really hope that he can try to make me change my mindset and makes me feels that, there is really happiness in marriage... I also hope that he is the one whom can makes me think that marriage is a step towards long-term happiness...
Leaving TCC, we proceed on to Suntec for a walk.... Walking around aimlessly from one level to another... haha! Suntec is big enough for aimless walk... hahaha!!!! After walking for awhile, we went to Millenia Walk and had a drink in one of the pub... Enjoyed the stay there... Partly becuz of the atmosphere... But mainly is becuz, he is beside me.... No matter where we go, I will enjoy it with him beside me... While drinking, of cuz, we talked alot... I got to understand him more and more... And, I hope he does too...
Crazily enough, we were playing with the camera and took numerous photos... I love taking photos with him... Funny ones... haha!!! Crazy one...!!! And, serious and pretty ones... HEHE!!!
Although abit mushy... But, I still want to say...
J, I LOVE TO HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE!!!

Friday, 1st Aug
hmmmm... quite a hectic day.... Hectic in the sense that, when I woke up, I went over to post office to collect the parcel for my online shop... VERY HEAVY... And I took the parcel, to MRT station, to pass some goods to one of my customers... But, she end up put my aeroplane... DUN EVEN WAN TO ANSWER MY CALL!!!! &*$^&$%&$#
After that, becuz of her, I rush back all the way from MRT station with that parcel in my arms, to my house, cuz there was someone coming over to repair my laptop.... After that, I rush to BBDC to have my driving lesson... I was late for that... haiz...
After my driving lesson, went for tuition... And after tuition, went down town to meet him for dinner plus movie... Watched Money not Enough 2... Quite touching throughout the show cuz the ah ma inside the movie made me think of my dearest grandma... I miss u....

Thursday, 31st July
I had ended my industrial immersion...
After my work, I went dinner with him in Botak Jones... Then, end of my day...

Life is Unpredictable..

2008-07-30T13:43:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I was given an ISO file to read... I read it from the moment I step into office, until the time when I leave office... It's a very deadly poison for me.... I'm 3/4 dead...
I did give myself some interval of breaks.... hehe!! When around 4pm, Mr Bin gave me a person's blog to read... http://caiweii.blogspot.com.... It's quite sad when reading through it... What the girl had blogged on, really reflects deep down into my heart that, I had to cherish the people around me... Don't wait till we lose them... And it's proven that, don't read sad stuff in office... Ppl will thought that u cry and give u that kind of sympathy look... haha!!!

Went for dinner in Sakae Teppanyaki... haha! For the first time in Munk's life, he claimed that yesterday was the 1st time that he felt full but I still hungry... The portion given to us is the same!!! Haha!!! After dinner, we proceed on to TCC for some "after-meal-treat"... International Building had a new 24 hours outlet... But, that TCC does not give me the feeling of a 24 hours cafe... Some of the cakes I like were OOS... And, I tot 24 hours cafe should have more stock??? hahaha!!!

This few days, somehow, had some small arguments with him... Partly also becuz I can't control my emotion and also, my tolerance level is at its lowest point this period of time.... So, he kena... And, this was the first time...
Everytime when I voice out what I'm upset about, he explained to me and give me more assurance... I know he cares and is serious about this relationship... And so do I...
I'm glad to have him in my life now... Although I can't be so sure now that he will be the one whom will follow me down the rest of my life... But for now, I feels that, he might be...
Given that we had alot of barriers that will affect our relationship in the near future, I will still try my best... Becuz, I'm happy to have him by my side... This feeling of happiness, is really, the first time in my life, that I had felt it... And, I still do...

Dear J,
Thanks for bringing me this happiness and joy......
I love being with you and have u by my side...
Fenz

Attached but Available???

2008-07-28T10:27:00.003+08:00

What does that phrase "Attached but Available" represents?
Somehow, this statement, is a very common sight in this world now....
Especially players, even though they are attached, they open themselves to others and still accepting more "offers"... When one that seems better than their current partner, they will switch to the better one...
But not only players, for a normal person, they also have this mindset... Is just that, they didn't explicitly say it out... This kind of people are more scary... They don't want anyone to think that they are not serious about relationship... Hence, they "secretly" look out for better partner and do their selection...
This leads to another statement of "having a lifebuoy is better than having nothing..."
Why would some people choose to be attached even though they feels that they are still eligible to look out for a better partner? That is becuz, before they can find someone better, they still have a spare one with them... In the end, if they couldn't find or even being accepted by "better one", they still have a spare one which is still beside them...
Someone said, "although i'm attached, but, I still haven't sign anything... So, why am I not eligible to look out for better one?"
After listening to this, makes me feels that, relationship is just a very vulnerable thing... It's as if wrap with rice paper... Once poke with a wet finger, or even put in a humid environment, it will damage... This sentence also let me felt more firm on my thoughts that, even marriage don't mean anything nor does it give u a sense of security...
Even if you signed on a Marriage Certificate, you can also sign on a Divorce Certificate...
It is difficult find the right person for you to spend the rest of your life...
Even if at this moment, you feels that, "YAP.. HE/SHE IS THE ONE!"... That might just be a false alarm...
You won't know how he/she is thinking and does he/she has the mentality that, he/she is attached to you, but still available to others....
Personally, I felt that, we should be careful towards people, even they are your partners....
They are the most prominent person to hurt you deep down into your heart, especially when you are unaware of.... You might think that he/she is the right one for now, but he/she might not think the same way (even he/she said so... Might just be lying.... Who knows?!).....
This had make this world lack of "TRUE LOVE"....
With all the awareness and guard, who will actually dare to open up their heart and truely love another person???
What had we all done to ourselves???
Do we really need to hurt so many people in order to find our "real" partners??
Or are we just looking for a "perfect partner" instead of the one we love most???

For those who are attached but have the mentality that they are still available, just be aware that, you might end up having nothing....

Mini Love Stories

2008-07-24T16:16:00.003+08:00

Found afew short stories in a forum... And, find that it's nice... Share with u guys....

Story #1
Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others......, including Love.
One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean.
So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave.
Love was the only one that stayed.
She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment.
When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave.
She began looking for someone to ask for help.
Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat.
Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you."
Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."
Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now."
Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him.
Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder.
Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way.
Love realized how much she owed the elder.
Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?"
"It was Time", Knowledge answered. "
But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked.
Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered,
"Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

I love the last sentence... And it's true that, only time is capable of understanding Love.... Everything depends on time....

Story #2
Once there was a blind boy.
He fall in love with a girl.
One day girl asked him ..." Will you marry me?"
He said ..." Yes i will, but when i shall be able to see you."
After some days someone donated him eyes.
He was very happy to see his love.
But when he saw that girl was also blind.
He refuse to merry her.
Before leaving,the girl said ...
"As you wish my dear But i want to say only one thing. Please Take Care Of My Eyes..."

Should be awake by now....

2008-07-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

Yap... Suddenly realised.... I should be awake...
Even if someone you trust most said something....
Still listen with doubts....
Normally, is the person you think you can trust that hurt you the most....

I shouldn't been putting so much of my feelings in.....
In the end, the person who will be hurt, will be me....

Sad to say, but, I must learn to protect myself....
I can't depend on anyone to protect me and prevent me from getting hurt....

Weekends consider Good, or Bad?

2008-07-21T13:53:00.002+08:00

Seems like, MSPeepz, all stay home and rot ya? Except me and Yingz... haha!! Ganbatte ne!

Today is a rainy day.... Planned to go jogging with him after I work... But, it started raining since 10am.... So, now still thinking of what to do after work... hehe!!!

Seems like, it's always the weekends that drew us apart....

During the weekends, we didn't meet, nor communicate as much as we do during weekdays...

Somehow, I felt that as if we get together becuz we can accompany each other during the weekdays after our work... And for weekends, we have our own things to do... Don't really need each other...

But, the above few sentences, is just me, being paranoid... What can I expect in a new relationship?!?! He had already accompany me quite alot... Or should I say, to the MAX liao....?

Nah... Don't wan to spend too much time together... Orelse, will become a kind of habit... haha!!!

Later I become malted candy and stick to him... Then die liao... haha!!!

I'm happy that I found my cup of tea... And, my feelings for him grow stronger and stronger...

Towards him, I don't need to hide... When I talk, I can be direct... What I expect and what I want, I can directly tell him and he understand... I don't need to beat around the bush when with him, and I love that feelings and accompany....

Without him, my life will be great....

With him, my life changed... And I know, more differences awaiting for me....

With him, my life becomes even better... And, more colors were added and are adding still...

He gave me the necessary assurance and comfort that I longed for....

He understand my sorrow and silently took it away from me and reduce my burden....

I'm a thinking box, and he knew that...

He is trying his best not to activate my thinking box and hoping to have my smile on my face always...

Wires Mess Up!

2008-07-17T11:41:00.000+08:00

To Yingz: Aiyo… Norway photos cannot take away lah… I love it so much!!!! Hehe!!! Happy memories over there…. Hehe!!! As for the songs, wait till I’m free at home then I change lah… hehe! Now, no time lo… hur hur!
This time round, I think I’m really crazy… Really really crazy….!!!
What had I done yesterday?!?!?!?!
gOsh!!! Where the heck does that courage comes from?!?!?!
Oh gosh oh gosh….
When we were strolling after dinner, I told him that, even we only knew each other not for long, and got together for afew days only, I like him more and more everyday….
I’m really crazy le….
CRAZY FENZ!!!
But after saying, the courage went off immediately… Super duper shy after that… I could feel my face blush to max!
Another happy day since 12th July 2008…

Ahemmm.... My Wrong....

2008-07-16T15:09:00.002+08:00

First of all.... Message to specific people:
Fat Munk: I know why I shouldn't be detailed... But, can't helped but noted down all the happy things that I had with him and uncontrollably posted on my blog.... And, I know I need to have more confident.... But, it is easier to be said than done.... I will try...
Mr Potato: You are a lame one!!!! Hehehe!!! But, Bon Voyage ya! Buy some food for me to eat when school reopens... hehe! Let's have picnic at the back of the lecture theatre... hOhoho!!!
Sinz: Thanks for your support ya! hehe! But, I think I gonna try writing my blOg in less details... Cuz got someone spying my blOg and gO around teLLing others whom I don't want those ppl to know... Defeat my purpose of not telling those ppl my blOg address... But, it's not MS peEpz... No worries ya! =)
So, let me recall... Monday what had I done... Nothing interesting... Just went for tuition and had alot of food... hahaha!! Ya... And went to bought 2 pairs of shoes to replace those that had been stolen by thief... Funny... The person who stole my shoes, I think they love my natural foot aroma thrapy... haha!
As for yesterday, went to watch Hell Boy 2 with yvonne... On my way towards Wdl, he was with me in the train... I was feeling down at that moment becuz I had received a call and knew that someone betrayed my trust... While waiting for her arrival, he accompanied me to walk around CWP... Although just an hour walk with no direction, I felt ... the feelings is not able to be replace just by the word "happy"... The unhappiness that I had when i'm in the train, slowly disappear with him just being beside me. My sad face slowly being replaced by smile... He didn't do anything nor say anything on purpose to make me smile... His presence is more than enough... Action speaks louder than words... And he had proved to me he cares...
Today is the 5th day we got together... I'm happy and I believe in, SIMPLE BUT NICE....
Just somehow feels that, I'm not really good for him.... Argh... Where's my confidence?
Frankly speaking, I'm not those healthy girl whom can really give him a long promise future...
Too many tiny little illness that makes me felt so weak... I hate that feeling of weakness...
I felt as if I am and I will become a burden to him...
The happier we got, the more worries I had....
What if 1 day, I am gone...? I felt as if I had made him fall for me, yet I leave him half way...
From this point onwards, gonna eat healthier... Take note of the following:
1) EAT LESSER CHILLI *Gastric worsen*
2) EAT LESSER SPICY FOOD *gastric worsen lor....*
3) THINK LESSER *Migraine mah...*
4) EAT MORE CONFIDENT PILLS *haiz... hope they do have this kind of pills*
Think that's it for the time being.... haha!!!
Back to the movie... Hell Boy was not a bad movie... Quite funny in some ways...
Oh ya... BEfore the movie, me and yvonne went to Lerk Thai Wdl.... My advice to you guys is, if you love yourself, don't go and eat there.... Although I'm a die-hard fan of Lerk Thai MS, not for WDL... It sucks...! Really SUCKS!!!! Food not nice plus some of the food is abit spoilt.... Yucks! Made me went toilet 4 times.... awwww... gAstric pain for the whole night yesterday up till now...
Lastly, just to say....

I JUST LOVE BEING WITH HIM.....!

My Weekends....

2008-07-14T13:38:00.006+08:00

Starting with Saturday....

As usual, tuition and tuition...

After that, went to Carousel at Royal on Scotts with my family...

Not a bad place for buffet dinner... 56++ per pax... International Buffet...

After dinner, went over to Tangs cuz my dad wanna buy something before going for movie... While waiting for me, tada! Self-shOtting time!!!! hehe!!!! A nice way to pass time.... Watched Red Cliff... Not bad... But in between, the talking part, I dozed off... Cuz, TOO TIRED... Sleep for so little for this 2 weeks... haha!!!! Opps... *hurhur*

Talk about my Sunday...!
Sleep quite well until I overslept for tuition... haha!!! But in between my sleep, my uncle smsed voice msges over and made me laugh... he said his aim now is to feed me fat... haha!!!
After that, I received his sms asking if wanna go out after my tuition... Of cuz wan lah!!!! Our first official date since we got together lor...!!! I tot that only must wait till wednesday then we can have our first day.... hehe!!!
When saw him at CCK platform, hehe! I shy lah... hehe!!! Had some casual talk... Same as before we got together.... So, bla bla bla... Until when we were walking half way in Central, the difference came... As we pass by an escalator, he hold my hand... hehe! I lied to him that I don't remember when we started holding hands... cuz, I'M SHY lah!!!! =P
After walking for awhile in Central, we walked into a Jap restaurant and had some desert... Eating through half way, he suddenly asked me if I can be his gf... I was like giving the "HUH?? I thought that I already agreed the day before???? " look...
He explained that it's more sincere to say that face to face rather than through phone... And from this incident, I can sense his sincerity... And I feels that, he is a guy whom will try not to let me down.... At that point of time, I don't know how to answer to his question as I was too shocked plus to shy to actually answer him... Instead, I kept on cleaning the table with the wet tissue... tOo nervous le la... haha!!!! *Blush blush blush*
I did accepted his "offer" after blushing... hehe!!! And the fact is... yAp... We are together...!
sO, for the rest of the day, just walk and walk and enjoy each other's company lor...
After walking from Clarke Quay to Mr Merlion... And from Mr Merlion to Esplanade, and down to Cityhall MRT Station, was about time to go home...
I reached home around midnight and when I was about to start doing my report after bathing, my 5th uncle came with durians!!!!! Eat until I pengsan..!! Ok... he is not the main story in my blog now... haha!!! SKIPPED!!!
SO, after doing my report, we had a talk on the phone.... till near 3am...
Expectation of each others... He is not the type of possessive guys.... Neither do I wan to become one of that kind of possessive girls... Frankly speaking, I am quite possessive in the past... But, I believe that, he has his own life, me too! I cannot occupy his time too much... He should also has his freedom... And his own friends...
But the truth is, I don't wan to stick to him, be dependent on him, not becuz I don't really care... In fact, I do care alot!!!! If i can choose, I will choose to stick to him like malted candy, depend on him like a koala bear... But, NO!!!! I cannot do that...
What if 1 day, we loses each other? I will be hopeless once again... I will lose my directions and I will become a handicapped...
Frankly speaking, I still do not have the courage to believe in true love... I'm afraid that happiness are just like what I believed in...

*Beautiful but not long lasting*

12 July 2008

2008-07-12T10:33:00.004+08:00

The Most Important and Happiest Thing of the Day

Ermmmmm... Status Quo...

2008-07-10T15:22:00.002+08:00

wOw... Time flies... Internship is coming to an end for most of you. 19th July 2008.
As for me, I had extended it, sO, will be till 31st July 2008.
I quite like working here if I am given the opportunity to do the things I liked...
Anyway, I at first thought that yesterday he might pop out the question... But, he didn't....
Despite me doing so much preparation and thinking whether to tell him the truth or not, he didn't ask... So I didn't say... Maybe, is considered as 1 sided from me ba... haha!!!
I think too much... =P
Nvm... Life goes on...
Now in office, my shifu went overseas... From yesterday, till tomorrow...
This period of time, I'm in idle mode... I miss my shifu!!! FASTER COME BACK!!!!
Orelse, I will become stone soon...!!!!!
I wan to get out of this office!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO DO SOMETHING THAT ARE NOT SITTING IN OFFICE KIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now my eye lids felt so heavy.... Dropped down several times, making my brain auto shutdown almost every moment... haha!!!!
And JAS HO!!!! U TAG ME FOR WHAT?!?!!?!! Machiam chain letter sia... hahahaha~!!!!

Personal Test

2008-07-09T09:57:00.005+08:00

After viewing Yingz's blog, I got the website for the personal test and I did that...
Below is the conclusion:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

What type of personality do you have?
Bright and Cheerful:
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 75%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

The correctness of the above results is for you to find out whether is it true or not...
But I knew that, there is one person who definitely know it....

You know who you are... =)

For Couples: Love and Your Sweetheart

Should I be Happy? Or should I feels SAD?

2008-07-07T11:27:00.002+08:00

True and I agree that I care about him, too much….
As time goes by, the feelings towards him gets stronger…
Sadness and joy shown on my face become more and more obvious…
Up till now, the only sadness that I had due to him is that, I don’t know how he feels… I’m afraid that he doesn’t feel the same as I did… That’s the only sadness at this point of time.
Since Friday night, I think I’m flooded with joy…
We had very long conversation on phone for that night…
Talking about own opinions and thoughts… A good way of understanding each other more…
As for sat, we were basically sms-ing each other from evening onwards till the moment I got into theatre for a movie.
And yesterday, which is a Sunday, on and off, we did chat on phone… And at night, was a longer conversation.
Hmmmm… I kind of like talking to him… Although, some words and some things is not convenient to talk about, such as my feelings towards him, we still had quite a nice conversation… A good way of communication…
But, yesterday he said something about his feelings on some issues… And, it did affect me… But, nah… Don’t intend to expose that in my blog, neither to anyone else as that issue is super personal…. =) After he told me his thoughts about that issue, my heart felt so hurt… He said it in a general way, and he doesn’t know that that issue applies to me… I also didn’t tell him about it… So, when he voicing out his own opinion, my heart is weeping silently…
Although things can be so wonderful now, but, some things that happened in the past cannot be changed… And those things will or might become a barrier for me to goes on further.
For now, what I can say is, the problem lies with me. I had no confidence… Too many things I hate about myself, and I knew that if he knows about it, he will dislike me too…
I know that, if want to be together, first thing of all is, NO LIES….
But, how to tell him about it? I don’t dare to…
Quite of funny here… Tell him, I might lose him… Don’t tell him, I will lose him in future when he found out about it….
I think I got to give the feelings I had for him a 2nd thought… I don’t think I worth the love from anyone….
Why won’t people understand? I might look happy but, I’m not….

Magnets....

2008-07-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to eastward with him.... Was quite an enjoyable night I can say... We spent time together... Although didn't talk much during the 2 hours... But, the smile, laughter and eye contact is more than enough to express ourselves... Or maybe, I should say that, at least I'm enjoying his company... Sweet in my heart...
As for today, went to watch It's A Boy Girl Thing... Personally, I felt that, it's a nice show!!! Simple but nice... Things need not be complex in order to be appreciated by me... I just love simple... 简单爱... But, Mr Potato said tat this show still ok nia.. Cuz it's too common... Well.. Wat I can say is, WHAT DO U EXPECT?!?!?! =P
On my way home, he smsed me... Somehow in his sms, I can sense that he is not in the right mood... And finally, I asked him... And he praised me for my good sense... But, pushing me away by saying "It's ok I'm fine, thanks"....
The impact was as if me and him are both North-poles... That pushed me away, HARD.... Sad to say, but I'm abit hurt... I felt that, he don't feels like talking to me how he feels... Or maybe, right now, 我不是他的哪儿根葱，哪儿根草... He don't find it appropriate to tell me his personal stuffs? But, that's not all... His following few smses contains too many "thanks".... Each "thanks" seems like pushing me further and further away... It's as if his magnetic field is getting stronger and stronger, pushing me this North-pole further and further away with his strong North-pole force!
Seems like, from the start of this "love-ship", I had been assuming that he is a North-pole, and I'm definitely a South-pole....
Maybe, like someone said... I always like to plan and want everything to goes well according to my plan.... But, frankly speaking, I didn't plan anything... BUT, maybe, my subconscious did? I'm not sure... Nothing much can be done now...
我们是无所不谈的 1.朋友 2.知己 or 3.恋人-to-be ???
I'm in doubt with this 我们无所不谈.... I need his answer for the above...! 1, 2 or 3?
同样的一场日落, 同样你还是没说...
你用一万个理由, 都比沉默还温柔...
为什么爱我又不断退后
你害怕的是什么? 你想要的是什么?
站在你背后, 我连呼吸都痛....
我要相信你是爱我的...
我要相信你是勇敢的...
我烦时间是最残酷的...
我怎么等...?
我要相信你是爱我的...
不要当我每次唱情歌, 眼里总有太多泪不停拉扯...
我用一万个答案, 释我们的距离...
到最后发现我全都猜错...
你害怕的是什么? 你想要的是什么?
站在你背后, 我连呼吸都痛...

It's Your Turn Now...

2008-06-29T01:59:00.002+08:00

For the first time, I had been so initiative...

I never thought that I will do such things and say such words....

But, seems like, my words and actions, didn't get through to him...

I'm wondering, did he get my hint? OR did he not? Or, is he trying to play hard?

Will he take me for granted? And won't cherish me much then?

Being in this situation for days, I told myself from this moment onwards, I should hide my feelings...

I couldn't find anymore excuses for me to continue being one-sided...

I saw no responds from him...

It makes me think, he is not interested in me? Or is he? Or he is just to shy to voice out...??

Hmmmmm... Everything there is a possibility... But, all and all... I'm a girl...

I had done what I can do... And now, all left with him...

Days after days, feeling that, he is just treating me as friends... Friends that can talk to...

I felt abit cold-hearted... I couldn't pull myself up to continue going on...

Maybe, to him, I give up on him too easily...

But, I'm not giving up... I'm just "pausing" this being too initiative situation...

I'm just waiting for him to come and press on the "play" button to make our relationship continues...

I just hope this will happen... But once again, having too much hope will lead to more disappointment...

At the start when I decided to take the move to approach him, I had put in too much hope... Having too much confidence in myself... Hence, up till now, I think, my heart had tripped afew times... And this little trips, hurts alittle...

I always give myself a little tranquilizer by telling myself that " I'm still young... Even if I fail this time, I still have a long way to go..."

By saying this... At the moment, yap... It did heal the little wound abit... But, as time goes by, the wound starts to trigger abit...

幸福看似好靠近，但事实上，它是那么的遥远

我往前走，好想触摸它，但是，它离我越来越远

我已经不知道要继续向它前进，还是要倒后退回原点

亲爱的天使，能不能告诉我，该如何是好呢？

请把我推向幸福的那一端，好吗？

能带给我幸福和快乐的人，是他吗？还是，另有其人？

Not My Day....

2008-06-26T09:26:00.002+08:00

Today, is not my day... DATE: 26 June 2008
Before today, i tot that 26 June 2008 will be a good day and a happy day...
I had been longing for this day to come...
When I woke up this morning, I was happy that today is 26 June!
Although I woke up slightly late as my itchy hand turned off the alarm...
By waking up 10 min later than usual, I had no time to spend on doing the happiest thing of the day (Mr Pig knows what it is... haha!!!)
Speed up everything and leave the house in time...
Until when I reached office, I noticed that, I can't find my phone!!! gOsh!!
I left it on the dining table and forgotten to bring it out... haha!!!
I felt so handicapped now... The only communication device with someone is not with me....
DEPRESSED... Somemore, I forgotten to do alot of things and bring them also...
arGh! I just lack of forgetting to wear "inner beauty" to work!!!! ARGh!!!
Anyway, 24 hours is gone without C & C... 1 day further from happiness???

Players....

2008-06-23T14:32:00.000+08:00

Well… This sentence is had always been on my mind ever since 2 years ago when I encountered an incident… I’m not intending to explain the incident here… =)
Generally, all guys will accept whatever girls that delivers themselves to their doorsteps….
At first, I didn’t think that this sentence will actually affect anyone, and it’s something that I felt is true… But, knowing that this sentence has such a great impact, I had reconsidered the real meaning of it for a night…. And I came to a conclusion… I still find that, it’s quite true… haha!!!!
Actually, I was planning to write something about Players… But, somehow, someone, encouraged me to write the above too… So, yah… Now, go on to Players…
Players… Both girls and guys players exist… And, they are the scariest category of people that exist on earth…
They will, cheat your feelings and dump you… Continue to cheat another person and dump and continue and continue… endless hurting!!!
Even now, who ever I encounter, I am so afraid that they are just players and hurt me… Becuz of this, I had never dare to be initiative to approach guys if I liked… I will be very careful about what they do and I will tends to think a lot for almost any action and any words they say and do…
Can someone whom I care about, treat me good with his heart? Treat me good becuz you really care for me, and really hopes that I will be happy… I really detest self-centred people... What they do, they only think of themselves… Seldom will they think or even realized that they had or about to hurt someone… Players are self-centred… VERY VERY SELF-CENTRED….
ALL PLAYERS PLEASE TAKE NOTE….

PLEASE KEEP A DISTANCE FROM ME…

GET NEAR ME AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Coughing Season

2008-06-23T12:10:00.002+08:00

Had been coughing for weeks already...
I realised that, actually I can hear quite afew of my collegues coughing in the office!
CONCLUSION: COUGHING SEASON!!!
Well.. This season, the weather is super duper hot.... And the clinic are all super duper packed....
And most importantly, is the DURIAN is super duper nice!!!!
But after eating, you will be super duper DEAD!!!! haha!!!!
Now cough till I abit no voice liao... haha!!!
On Friday, my korean friend came!!!! gOsh!!! I brought her to Clarke Quay... But, on the way there, I think I had made quite afew redundant ways... End up, Her friend and her asked me whether am I a Singaporean.... So Paisei lah!!!! haha!!!
but before I met her, I was with Mr Pig... went for dinner plus gelare waffle... Topped with Double white chocolate and Chocolate Overload icecream... Super sinful!!!
I had explained to him why am I so happy this few days... I'm really happy... Hehe!
So sorry that I had said a sentence that bother you so much... hehe!!! So sorry!!!
Well... While I'm with my korean friend, something "strike" me... Abit feeling weird... I felt as if something hit hard on my little cute heart... hehe!!!
I smsed my another friend, Mr Bin... and really, I felt so thankful that you came down all the way just to listen to me BUT-ting... hehe!!! Suddenly felt, guilty when sat we had dinner... Becuz of me, you leave your friends there... So sorry!!! hehe!!! I KNOW YOU ARE READING NOW!!! SEE HOW SORRY I AM???
but, things got better on sat midnight... and even better on sunday evening after I clarify my doubts... hehe!!! I FELT HAPPY!!! But, not very very happy liao... Cuz abit injured liao... I think my puffer fish's spikes abit triggered le... Always prepare to defence...
But really, I really thank the 2 of you, Mr Pig and Mr Bin for being there for me when I need to talk to someone... And also, listening to me nagging... And provide me with food when I'm so broke... haha!!!

Thanks guys! I appreciate it alot!!!!

Marriage?

2008-06-20T09:47:00.002+08:00

Talking about marriage... what is marriage?

Stepping stone towards grave?

Or a path towards happiness?

Why people need to get married? For? Just to possess someone? Tied them down so that they can't find someone else and totally just belongs to you? Or, just for the sake of having a certificate, proving that both of you are officially _ _ _ partners?

Personally, marriage is just a certificate... What for get married? Whereby in the end, you can just divorce with a paper too... Paper for Paper... Plus alot of complex issues...

I can say that, I really don't trust marriage...

How I wish... There is someone... Whom can change this mentality that I had...

There are multiple barriers that need to be break in order for me to totally believe in a relationship...

People around me... Happily married... Sadly, end up divorcing...

Who is out there to actually make me believe in it?

I'm a selfish person... I hate to get myself hurt... but, at the same time, when i'm hurt... I will hurt someone else...

A wounded tiger is filled with power to hurt others so as to protect herself....

I AM VERY HAPPY!!

2008-06-18T13:57:00.002+08:00

Well well... I'm still happy, and is VERY HAPPY!!! HEHE!!!
But, as for the reason why, I don't intend to say... *SeCrEt* ... hehe!!!
Went for GoodWood Park Dessert Buffet yesterday...
The dessert is really nice... But, it's kind of torture...
Having all sweet and creamy stuffs will makes you feel sick... haha!!!
Definitely... I WON'T GO BACK FOR DESSERT BUFFET.... *Inclusive of other places*
Hmmm... Will update on the reason why am I so happy when I know the happiness can last longer in my life... hehe!!!!

10 mins more!

2008-06-17T17:18:00.000+08:00

Hehe!!! 10 more minutes and I will finish my work of the day!!! Yeh!!!
Today is a tired day... I'm so tired... I think is becuz of that stupid sore throat that makes me so heaty and hence, felt sick.... And then, become tired... haha!!!
But guess what...?!?!?! After work, I will be going to eat Dessert Buffet!!!! haha!!!!
wOw!!! 4 kinds of durian pastries, 4 types of cakes, puddings, ice creams and more!!!! wOw!!!
I love it!!!! Becuz of this, I didn't have my lunch!!! gOsh!!!
I'm so hungry now!!! I can eat alot lor!!! haha!!
Just kidding... I dun wan to become a pig... hehe!!!
Actually, this 3 days, quite happy... hehe!!! *Secret*

Bad Wednesday

2008-06-11T11:13:00.002+08:00

A new week started again...
Not a bad start for Monday and Tuesday...
But for today, I felt moody...
I felt.... We are drifting apart... Dunno why... But, just felt so...
I'm abit lost today....
Hope the gym session later on can help me to clear my mind....

Friday Night

2008-06-09T10:15:00.008+08:00

Hehe! Purposely delay till today then do this posting cuz I knew that I will be super bored in office... So, left some things to keep myself occupied in office....

First of all, I gonna post the evidence to prove that I had been abused on Friday night...

Above are all the evidence... Was done by Mr Pig... Mr Potato, I hereby employ you as my lawyer... HELP ME SUE MR PIG!!!!!

Gosh... Now those red teeth marks become blue black liao lah!!!!

Haiz... Those photos taken on fri was with sher... I want them!!! I WANT THEM!!!

Mr Potato... Please wait for me to online tonight.... Around 10 plus k? I gonna go tuition first... hehe!!! THANKS MR POTATO!!!

Richman Online

2008-06-04T12:36:00.007+08:00

I was being FORCED to update my blog... So, gonna share with everyone what had I been doing for whole yesterday night and the whole morning of today!
WELCOME TO RICHMAN ONLINE!!!!
Let's watch a video of the game first! Hehe!

Looks fun ya? I'm so tempted to play this... Had been trying ways to get the game ID... But, still not out yet for AsiaSoft... hehe! http://www.richmansea.com/

There is another website having this online game, but, the registration date is closed... So, waiting for the next one...

Imagine having an online Monopoly!!! Gosh!

MS peeps, let's monopoly when it's out!!!!

Some of the posters I got...

KungFu Panda Trailer!

2008-05-30T09:51:00.000+08:00

A MUST TO WATCH!!!!

Please... PEACE!

2008-05-29T12:17:00.002+08:00

Gosh... This makes me FELT SO FIRM regarding the thoughts of disliking talkative guys!!!!!
Finally, I felt that being talkative is not a good thing... Sometimes, will irritate people to their nerves!
This uncle, who is the SBO of my company, sits in front of me.
Even with the half partition, he still likes to turn over to me, rest his head on the partition while resting his butt on his chair, and start talking to me....
Welll... For the first few days, I can still take it...
But, after 2 weeks... I tell you... HE REALLY GOT TO MY NERVES!!!!
He boost about his son, and repeat the same old story over and over again...
"Boost" about how his son love to spend money, clubbing, etc etc etc...
He can ask me the same thing over and over again...
And, for half of my life, this is the first time I really regret telling someone that I hate lizard!!!
On monday, he asked me whether do I afraid of cockroaches... I told him I don't....
Then, he asked me what do I scared of... sO, I just merely mumble through saying I scared of nothing except lizards...
Gosh! From then on, NIGHTMARE STARTED!!!
From that moment on, I think, my whole office knew that I'm afraid of lizards!
He talking volume is in ascending mode....
He laugh and laugh over the matter of disliking lizards...
He keep on talking about lizards and discribing them in front of me...
He always try to scare me out of it.... And, guys... YOU ALL KNOW HOW I HATE THAT!!!!
But, he is the senior in the company... I cannot show him how DETEST I'm towards him!!!!!
Still... I have to give him a smiling face... Show him how entertained I am with all his "jokes" and stories....
You know what... He is very capable of turning over and talk grandmother stories to me while he was half way through doing important documentation!
I have to keep praying that his phone rang, and then he will finished his sentence, and turn back to pick up his phone.... IMMEDIATELY, I will faster take out all the documents from my drawer, useful and non-useful, and flip like mad, to show him that I'm BUSY, DON'T TALK TO ME!
First time in my life, I encountered this kind of person!

HENCE, I HEREBY ANNOUNCED THAT, I, HUIFEN, DISLIKE TALKATIVE GUYS FROM 29 MAY 2008, 12.28pm ONWARDS!

Now then, I know, how irritating I can become sometimes when I'm buzzing around my friends... Talking non-stop... Ok.. I know what to do already... Talk only when necessary...

3rd Week....

2008-05-28T12:10:00.002+08:00

Time flies... I had already been working here for 2 weeks plus...
Up till now, quite happy with it... Just that at point of time, very bored...
Cuz really nothing meaningful to do....
Last friday, went onboard an anchorage vessel...
gOsh! It was a fun experience...
If have chance, I would like to go up as many time as possible!!!
But, my supervisor said that, going to anchorage is just for an experience... Once is enough... =(
But, lucky, still have chance to go up other berthing vessels... hehe!!!
Currently, sitting in office, heating up my butt... haha!!!
Gonna hand in a project and a report by the end of internship...
Well... Although I kept on complaining that I had nothing to do...
But, asking me to do project for whole day in office, is a torture!!!!
I can frankly and confidently said that, OFFICE JOB IS NOT MY CUP OF TEA!!!!

First Week of Internship!

2008-05-17T10:57:00.002+08:00

Had finished the first week of internship...
I can say that, the waking up at 6.40am is a torture to me...
Squeezing the train is even more torturing!
I hate to be in the train and being squeezed by others when they are coming in...
Especially that, everyday I board the train with a very pleasant smell...
Disembark the train with a pungent smell... YUCKS!
Hm... Actually in this 1 week, I learnt quite alot of things...
I had learnt alot about the company's management, Cargo Stowage and Securing, and most interesting and I interested in, is the Operation site!
I'm currently attached to the Operation Site, hence I learnt quite alot of how they operate...
Can't wait to go onboard ASAP!

Body aching!!

2008-05-06T13:06:00.002+08:00

Awww... Today woke up and whole body aching like mad!!!
I think is because yesterday fight with a bull.... Then used too much energy!
Haha!!! That bull very fierce lor!!!
Bang me here and there until I had blue-black on my arms...
Also hit my back! GOsh!!! Stupid bull!!
Mr Potato didn't rescue me... He just stand there and watch... Jian Si Bu Jiu!!!
Awwww... Just now mop the floor...
Well.. Now then I know... Cleaning a 5 room flat is really very tired....
My both arms very tired... And is dropping down...
Haha!!!
Today those clothes I ordered online, is here! wOw!
Love it!!!
Hehe!!!
Gonna start work next monday lo....
ooohhhh.... Still thinking of what to wear... Sian... =P

为什么自己不开心，要弄到身边的人都不快乐？

2008-05-03T21:33:00.002+08:00

为什么有些人，自己不开心的时候，也要弄到身边的人都不快乐？
我觉得，他们好自私喔!
嗨。。。
我自己也会这样子。。。很讨厌这样的我。。。
Mood super affected by someone...
He thought that he is the only one who is in bad mood,
he thought that he is the only one who is suffering from this kind of weather....
For his information, I'm also suffering from this blasting weather...
And I really felt very stuffy!
And, because of him, I become very moody too!

1 more week towards StArt wOrk!

2008-05-02T23:14:00.002+08:00

wOw! gOnna start work soon! haha! 1 more week...
Haiz... When start working, I will shag... Tuition + Work... DEAD!
haha!!! Now busy reading through chemistry notes for tomorrow's tuition...
Not really good in my chemistry... So, must work harder, orelse will teach wrongly and mislead my student... haha!!!
Oh gOsh! This few days, stomach very bloated... And, went fatter again!!! arGh!!!
I wan to faint liao... FAT? DIET? CONTRADICT eaCh other!!!
I'm tired... tIred tired tired...
Tired of finding money....
Tired of spending money....
HEhe!!!

LaLaLa!!! 27 April lo!!!

2008-04-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a torturing day! Had 3 tuitions throughout the day. As for today, is 2 tuition...
Coming Labor day, is really a Labor Day.... 5 tuitions for the whole day.... I think I will faint at the end of the day... Don't know what will happen when II starts...
Hm... Anyway, addicted to another drama again... But, cried till made.... haha! Cuz is a sad drama... Finishing soon... HoHo!!! stUpid Lie... IntRO me that show.... arGh!!!
yEh! 2 more days towards REAL freedom! Had been relaxing since after thursday paper! wOw!
HEhe! GOnna start studying again in afew min time!
Wish me luck in concentrating! Haha!!!

YeH! One more to GO!!!

2008-04-26T21:45:00.002+08:00

Hehe!!! SO happy!!! I had managed to pass the most torturing days!!!
Hehe!!! Now, left with 1 more paper! Ship Chartering! HEhe!
Well... I usually did revise for that, so not that stress.... Hehe!
This few days too addicted into online shopping....
Spent too much on online liao... aWwww.... sOmeone rescue me!!!!
Get me out from online shopping!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm shaGGed

2008-04-23T00:29:00.003+08:00

I'm shagged.. tOtally...
I'm so tired now... Feels like sleEping...
gOsh! This sleepiness makes me ate alot in order to get rid of it!
bUt, still don't works! I'm dOzing Off soOn...
GoOd luck to the paper later on...
I'm gOing intO my dReam and meet my Mr Fei...

Wasted a Day....?

2008-04-19T21:45:00.002+08:00

I'm so totally obssessed into the drama 又见一帘幽梦...
That's why I keep saying, I prefer older guys..
This show totally expressed the reasons!!!
I knew that to find this kind of love is near to zeRO,
bUt, I will still look for it...!!!
疼我，包容我，把我当成手心里的宝!
Someone who will sees me first, rather than notice me later when together with others....
But, not now... I still searching for my 人生目标...
All and all, I had finished watching this 46 episodes of drama...
I had been neglecting my studies...
From now on, I gonna WORK HARD first, towards 人生目标!
fOr bOth my sTUdies and my diet... hehe! DIET!!!
Talk about diet, it had been all along quite successful for this week... BUT!!!
TODAY!!! My dad!!! He knew that I'm having diet... He don't like the idea of going on diet...
He cooked alot! And all are those I liked!!!
Almond dessert, he cooked a big pot... And unresistable!! I drank a big big bottle of 1 litre!!
Fish porridge with mince meat...! HE knew that I loved the mince meat he made, sO, he put alot of it into the porridge.. Making it taste more like MEAT PORRIDGE!! gOSh...!
But, they are all delicious!! Hm... Hope tomorrow won't be that much!!!
I gonna continue to eat like a beggar!!! haha!!!

2nd Paper, left 5 Papers to gO!

2008-04-17T12:40:00.002+08:00

Today will be having my 2nd paper...
The paper start at 5pm... So now, trying to recap all the things I had memorised...
Why do we have to study SPATIAL INFORMATION SCIENCE?
It's a torturing module.... And it is my core module! gOSh!

After today, I left with 5 more papers to go... Haiz... Hell Life...
Next Monday:
- Maritime Professional and Society
- Research Methods in Public Administration

Next Wednesday:
- Port Planning

Next Thursday:
- Maritime Science II

Next Next Tuesday:
- Ship Chartering

And I can honestly say.... I haven't touched on those modules yet...
Can take a knife and poke me?
I can't even concentrate and start studying!
gOsh... Plus the weather, is superly crazily hOt!
Especially in my rOOm, XI ZHAO!
The sun blast in from the right of the window in the morning, and directly in in at noon, and come in from the left of the window in the afternoon...
Who can study while suana-ing whole day? =(

Where is my angel? Come and rescue me please!

Please Concentrate!

2008-04-14T15:47:00.003+08:00

gOsh... Can't concentrate in studying... Everytime when I settled down and studied for 10 min, I started drifting off again... Should bang my head on the wall... haha!

Recently in love with a song....

The cOntEnt:

爱爱爱爱了几回

也明白其中滋味

付出的从来不会等于收回

我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回

也曾经为爱憔悴

爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈

我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼

女人女人我答应做个好人

我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼

女人女人我答应做个好人

不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等

你就是我等的那个人

多么希望你是对的人

The last sentence is the MOST MEANINGFUL one...

Hmmmmm...

gOnna sTudy again!! GOOd LucK to myself and my fellow frIends fOr tomorrow torturing paPer!

ALL THE BEST!

sTudy EnViroNment

2008-04-12T21:00:00.003+08:00

A Picture Speaks A Thousand Words....

4 Pictures sPeak 4 ThOusaNd wORds!!!

This is the messiness of my rOom nOw...
sTudy taBle, bEd... I even brought in the mahjoNg taBle....
Sitting on the bed and made use of the maHjong tabLe... HAha!!
sLeep, eAt, sTudY at the saMe place... gOsh...
17 mOre dAys to fReedOm!!!

diEt? DieT? DIET!!!

2008-04-11T13:38:00.002+08:00

Oh gOsh... Just scrolled down my blog entries and noticed that, I had been emphasising on going on a dIeT.... But, you know what...?
I HAVEN'T STARTED!!! hOhO!!
Hmmm... welll... come to think about it...
I had just ate a big bowl of food a min ago... hAha!
Exam period is a torture and make diet a super faILure!!!
hahA!!! And... I can'T concentrate on my stUdies!!!
I kept thinking of something...
Something keep turning in my mind... hAiz!
Please go away!! Let me concentrate on my sTUdIeS!!!

eXam is cOmIng sOOn!!!

2008-04-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

Exam is coming soon....! Less than a week, it will commerce.
Past few days, had been quite moody...
Very fustrated with alot of things...
Family and school stuffs are driving me crazy...! Madness! gOSh!
Busy with tuitions... They are all pulling me... Felt so tight sometimes...
What to dO? Where is my gOld tOrtoiSe? Come and rescue me pleaSe!!!
gEt me oUt of thiS mOney wOrld... yOu wOrk, I enjOy... hehe!!
Kind of missed Norway... hehe! Happy life down there!
Singapore is hOt hOt hOT and bLasTing fReaKing HOT!!!
SuAna-ing in my room again everyday.... OnLy get to enJoy dArkness at nIght...
aWww.... geT me oUt of this!!!

Happy Chinese New Year!

2008-02-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

First of all, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Today is the 4th day of New year! Had been eating non-stop since wednesday...

All those diet work had gone into drain already...

But, NVM!!!

STARTING from NOW!!!!

DIET STARTS!!!

Hm... Already started school for 5 weeks....

Time flies....

7 more weeks, I will be having my examinations....

Then comes my internship....

Gonna start working... Abit scared... Hehe!

But, nvm... Sooner or later, I must FACE it....

Hm... Now gonna study for the coming quiz this tuesday...

Port Planning and Operation....

Wish me gOOd LucK!!

Back in Singapore!!

2008-01-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

WoW! Finally after 6 days, I managed to find afew minutes to blog... haha!

Well.. Ever since I got back to Singapore, I had been feeling very very tired till now....

Didn't get to sleep much .... Went to school for 2 days already.... For this 2 days, I dozed off afew minutes after the lesson started... haha! wasted trip to school I feel... haha!

People dun understand how tired I am and thought that I was just giving excuses...

Well.. Up to them to think... If they think this way, then means, they are not true friends...

Friends should think for one another... haha!

8 days Paris!

2007-12-30T17:58:00.000+08:00

wOw! Finally got internet connection!

In Paris, NO INTERNET CONNECTION!!! Need money... haha!

So, well... Gonna update u guys on my Paris trip... haha!

Days in Paris flies.... 8 days juz gone so fast... haha!

Who says Christmas in Europe will sure be fun? BULLSHIT!

Christmas in Paris, is BORING! For what I know, Parisans celebrated Christmas with their family... So, during Christmas eve, all shops even restaurants and cafes, closed before 5pm...

Pathetically, I had my Christmas Dinner in a very LOK chinese restaurant... haha!

Well.. But, on 25th December 2007, the Disneyland Trip gave the Christmas feelings back to me!

Fun in Disneyland... Managed to feel the Christmas atmosphere... haha! Will upload those photos when I go back SG... OR afew days later..

AWWWW... I GROW EVEN FATTER LIAO!!! GOSH!!! GONE BACK TO FISHMONGER LE... I DON'T WAN!!! SAVE ME!!!

Haiz... Actually, missed the days in Oslo already... Whereby all of us, fight, cook, eat, bla bla bla together..... NVM... Will see u guys on 4th Jan 2008!!! wait for me to get back to SINGAPORE!

Hm... Yesterday reached London through Eurostar.... Quite fun as a handsome Parisan sat beside me.... haha!

Hm... Once touched down in London, I felt so welcomed... ENGLISH SIGN BOARDS!!! FInALLY!!!

Some things I understood... DIRECTLY! Also, no communication problems with the people here... Fun fun fun!!!

Once settled down in the hotel,which was NICE, I rearranged those brochures and figured out how to spend my next 4 days in London, then JY and I headed down directly to Oxford STREET... START OUR SHOPPING!!! YAHOO~~~~~!!!!

Juz in a short few hours, we each spent 50 pounds, which was approximately SGD 150! GOSh! But, worth it! Cuz we bought quite alot! Later on, we gonna go back to Oxford street and continue the shopping.. yesterday only went in to afew shops and they closed... haha!

Yesterday JY was packing her luggage... haha! Her luggage was fulled already... Haven't even enjoyed much in the shopping... haha! She so funny~~!!

Ok.. Gonna rest awhile then start my shopping journey again!!! hope dun spent till broke!!

Madrid Phobia!

2007-12-20T09:50:00.000+08:00

Juz wanna say, SPAIN IS NOT A GOOD PLACE TO GO....

My buddy got his little red book stolen the moment we got to Madrid...

So, no choice but to start and end his travel in MADRID....

I think now he is on his flight back to Singapore...

I will help you TRAVEL around with your CAMERA BUDDIE!

Take Care! See you on 3rd Jan 08!

WoW! Last day in Oslo, Norway!

2007-12-15T08:04:00.001+08:00

It had been a fun and enjoyable stay for the past 4 months....

All of us had been playing together, eating together, joking together, studying together, and alot alot more things were done together!

We are staying near each other and it was easy to juz get from one room to another room within mins.... I love that! But, everything is ending today.... =(

I will miss our life together in Oslo...

The bonding will be there! ALWAYS!

During this whole trip, we got to know each other well! Well in the sense that we know each others likes and dislikes...

I will miss the days whereby everyone is around me....

Especially Ah Dai... He loves to eat... haha!

Melia, loves talking to her pene...

Sher, her paranoid-ness....

Jas Ho, her laughter...

Arron, his hidden violent-ness....

Jas Ang.... LOTUS SOUP!!

Sinyee... Her skills in gossiping!

Wan Jun... Wonderful way of expressing herself... (SHE'S NOT MY FRIEND! I DUN LIKE HER!)

Bao Hua... Her mirror... hehe!

Yeiling... Snatching my tootie....

Jieying... waaaaaaaaaaaa-ing.....

ZhiJian.... Ice cream sessions.....

And alot more...! Too many to name everything....

I will miss everything here...

Goodbye, Oslo....

Last Day of Hardworking~~

2007-12-14T04:25:00.001+08:00

Yehyeh!!! Tomorrow will be the last day of my examination!!

Had been looking forward to 15 Dec for so long....!

It's time to really enjoy myself before getting "Stress out" when I'm back in Singapore!

Haha! Had been slacking since tuesday after my econs paper too!

Thought of studying hard today, and end all the studies tomorrow... BUT,

the lazy-worm keep following me!

I woke up at 11 plus near 12pm... Then, had my breakfast and slacked around to wait for my lunch to be baked in the oven... haha!

In my mind, I planned to start studying at 1pm... But, dunno why... Delay here and there, I started touching my Law notes at 3pm... But, once I read the limitation of Oil Pollution, my brain JAMMED.... I stared at it till 4 plus... CAnnot take it, I walked to Yingz and asked her... haha!!! Well... Got my doubts cleared... But, I felt sleepy again....

I went to sleep... And woke up at 7 plus... haha! Had my dinner.... Then, slack here n there...

I started studying at 9pm... ERm... haha! studied for not more than 15 mins, I'm blogging now!!! haha!!! Well well... A very slack day....

GONNA START BUCK-ING UP, FEN!

I GO STUDY LIAO.... (Hope I can concentrate for more than an hr... *grinz*)

wOw! Left 5 more days in Oslo!!

2007-12-12T04:18:00.000+08:00

Haha! Finally! Finally! I left 1 more paper to go, and then, FREEDOM!!!
Hoho! But, the sad thing is, I only left 5 days more in Oslo.... Hehe!!!
Yesterday had a terrible night.... I studied for Econs till very very stress!!!
Then, today after paper, although I'm so tired, I haven't had my nap till now...
Just had very heavy dinner and also, Black Seasame... I had been constipated for 2 days!! GOSH!!
Haiz... If sleep later on, I afraid that I couldn't wake up in time to register for subjects... OH gOsh! Gonna become a panda.... haha!

Aims.....

2007-12-09T17:48:00.001+08:00

For the past few months, I had been enjoying my life, in the sense that, I don't need to work and give tuition to earn for my own spendings.... But, when I go back to Singapore next year, life will be hectic again... Although it might be very busy, I still enjoy it! Rather than sitting down and do nothing... Juz feeding myself fatter and fatter! haha!

My aim when get back to Singapore:

1. Buy my own 3-in-1 laser printer

2. Get rid of my desktop and change a new and powerful one!

3. Change my room setting, especially that rocky bookshelf

4. Don't play too much

5. Of cuz, don't grow fat.... hehe!

Welll... that's all for the time being.... Will add on if I think of anything else....

For now, gonna get back to study again! aWww...

Painful life....

Ahhh!!! Problematic Laptop!

2007-12-08T19:05:00.000+08:00

Hm... Seems like, everything started giving me alot of problems... haha! This time round, is my laptop! Haha! KEep having error... Need to scan for 1.5hrs before I can start using my laptop...

Argh!

Yesterday was trying to blog, but the cookies have error... haha!

Well... Forget it.... Today, gonna be a super hectic day again!

3 more papers to go... 1 on Monday, 1 on Tuesday and lastly, on FRIDAY!

OFF I go to Madrid on Saturday!! YahOo!

I will miss you Oslo!

Hm... Movies to watch on plane on 2nd Jan 08!

2007-12-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

1st: Stardust

2nd: Underdog

3rd: 1408

4th: Arctic Tale

5th: The Heartbreak Kid

6th: The Invasion

Can I finish watching so many movies in a 12 hours plus flight? haha! I wonder!

Enchanted!

2007-12-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching Enchanted! Oh gOsh! I love this movie!!!

1 dOwn, 4 LEFT!!

2007-12-06T08:54:00.001+08:00

WoW! Well well... My gastric, still abit problem... But, not that pain le... hehe!

It will still cramp occasionally lah... hehe! But, I'm happy that it is not that pain liao... hehe!

Today, quite a slack day... Read through what I intend to read and made some notes... Later on after I sleep, gonna memories everything before going for the paper on friday!

wOho! Gonna leave Oslo soon! Abit excited and also, abit sad...

Excited to go home... Sad to leave Oslo, permanently I think... =(

Now outside is 5 degrees... I started sweating in my room...

I can't imagine how I survive when I get back to Singapore with the temperature 20 plus to 30 plus... I will become roasted pig... haha!!

不进棺材不流泪

2007-12-04T19:34:00.000+08:00

Like what old proverb said, "不进棺材不流泪"....

Now, I really scared of junking in food into my mouth le...

Already so many days, and my gastric still didn't recover...

It even get worse...

I don't dare to eat other things, even my gastric recover...
So scary!!! I miss my family!!!

Still the same.... awwww.....

2007-12-04T02:08:00.000+08:00

Today is the 3rd day... My gastric pain still didn't go away....
When I was keeping my stuffs, I noticed that I still left with quite a number of gastric medicine... Then I was thinking, I won't be able to finish it... So, gonna pack them up and bring back Singapore... Then following day, my gastric started giving me problem... Since the mid night of Friday.... Until now, still.... Ouch! So pain~~~
When I was lying down on my bed trying to rest, with my blurr vision, I thought I saw my dad caming in through my door...! When I open my eyes and took a clearer view, it was juz illustion... I miss my dad! Every time when I'm not feeling well and lying on my bed, he will come in and concern about me... He will start asking me questions when he see me restlessly lying on the bed... "Sick? Fever? Where do you feels uncomfortable? Go see doctor? Want to eat anything?"...... I missed all this!!!

I LOVE YOU DAD!

Problematic Gastric~~~

2007-12-01T21:43:00.001+08:00

Yesterday night, I tried to sleep earlier... But, CAN'T! Flipping here and there, thinking of Doraemon song... Finally, I think I slept around 2 plus, going to 3am....

Well well.. But, I was awaken by the pain in my gastric at 5plus in the morning!

I thought I was juz too hungry... So, I made a cup of almond milk, and drank it... Then went to bed again... But, in a few minutes, the degree of pain increased! No choice, I crawled towards my shelf and got my gastric medication...

Hm... I tried very hard to get to sleep again, but the pain huanted me all along.... End up, I slept in a sitting position.... But, I only managed to get afew minutes of sleep before the pain increased again... So, after flipping here and there again, this time with the pain, the sky brightens up... And I made myself another cup of drink, this time is warm honey, at 10.30am...

AFter that cup of honey.. Hm... Get slightly better....

But, the pain come on and off... AND I'M HUNGRY!!! I ate the whole bottle of biscuits... hehe!

Hm... Abit better... But still pain...

HATE IT! SPOILT MY MOOD OF STUDYING!!! DISTRUPT MY PLAN OF STUDYING TOO!!!!

OH.... I beTter juz take it easy~~~

2007-11-30T08:52:00.000+08:00

The harder I try to control what I eat, the more I ate....

Well Well... Today, after dinner... Let me see... I ate:

6 biscuits, 4 digestive biscuits, 2 cups of almond drink, 1 cup of cereal, 1 cake, 2 cereal bars....

That's the results of my binge eating... haha!

So, from tomorrow on, take it easy...

Tomorrow onwards, eat well, and move well~~~ Means, exercise lah... hehe!

Hm.. As for today's progress... I finished 1 chapter of my econs, and also, finally finished reading "Different types of Shipping Entities"....

That's a torture! The notes was in a mess and I had to really read and read over and over again in order to understand... haha!

Well... Now is... 2am Norway time... gOnna cOntinue to study abit more... then, tomorrow onwards, gonna sleeP early le.. Dun wan to kai ye che le... haha!!!

Another Tired Day....

2007-11-29T07:00:00.000+08:00

Today my throat don't feels well....

People always say, when you don't feels well, you don't have appetite to eat... But, whenever I don't feels well, I will want to eat even more tasty food!

Gosh! I'm on my way towards fatty again!!!

Well well... Pray hard you guys will recognise me when I go back... Cuz juz now, one of my friends told me that she can't recognise me on photos... Cuz, I looks fatter... =(

Anyway, today morning, is a snowy day! So, my gang decided to go to the lake and take some photos...But, by the time we met, it became rain... Haiz.. Still, we made our way to the lake... haha! Abit stupid, and freaking COLD! Managed to took some photos... and, the lake is frozen!

Hm... Was wondering, those water ducks, aren't they cold when swimming in the lake? hahahahaha! Well.. Nvm... I will never know.. Cuz I dunno how to communicate with them... hahahaha!

Gosh... The speed of me studying, is SUPER SLOW and SLACK!

gOnna gO back SG soon! yaHoo! Singapore, I'm COMing bAck sOon!!!

Middle of the Night...

2007-11-28T06:30:00.000+08:00

In the middle of the night, I felt so bored! Study, study, study, STUDY!! Endlessly....

I had been studying for the past few weeks... But, these 4 days, I had no mood to study...

Slacking all around... Can't get my butt on the chair for long...

Munch and eat and Munch and Eat... aNd now, eVeryone says, FEN, YOU GROW FATTER!!!

Tell me... hOw?!?!?!?!?!?! I don't want to go back Singapore!!

I don't want to let people see a FAT FEN AGAIN!!!!

Fatty Birthday!

2007-11-08T05:27:00.000+08:00

Hehe! Finally had my 21st birthday! wOw! I was very shocked when my friends came into my room with a tiramisu cake! Well.. It is not easy to get a tiramisu 1kg cake here in Norway, and I bet it was expensive! Well well! I also got Emile (one of the Ratatouille's character!!) from them! WoW! I thought I buying it at the end of this year when I go Paris! But, they got it for me! So happy! But, the most shocking thing is, they asked my neighbours to come in and celebrate together too!!! My neighbour is very tall and handsome!! hehe! Another one which they didn't manage to invite him over, is handsome too! Looks like Lincoln Junior in Prison Break! I managed to pass him the cake after we cut it! hehe! Took a photo with them too! hehe! happy happy!
At first, I tot they wasn't going to celebrate with me, so, end up I ate a chocolate sponge cake all by myself in my room at 11pm of 5th November! End up, at 6th November 12.10am, I finished 0.5kg of the tiramisu cake all by myself! Up till now, I had gained 3kg since the day I landed in Oslo! TERRIBLE!
But, for my 21st birthday present that I gonna give myself, which is, DON'T GROW FAT ANYMORE!!!!
Haha! Simply says, I love my university friends! After coming over to Norway, we get closer and closer, days after days! Zai jia kao fu mu, chu wai kao peng you! It's true!

STRESS!!!

2007-10-28T07:44:00.001+08:00

ArGh! Exam is coming soon... So, what to do.. stuDy lor... HaHa!
But, once I start studying, especially Accounting, I get so tensed up! Stress!
Once I feel stress, I will want to eat... I will want to eat chocolates!!!
So, for the past few weeks, I had been eating chocolates!! Tons and tons!
Well... Juz only, I ate a Kit Kat Extra (Big Size) and also, a bottle of Smarties! All becuz of the Consolidation Accounting!!! gOSh!!!
I had put on weight... My face also gets rounder... Awwww...
Why people gets thinner when stress and I'm the opposite? haha!
I dun wan to become a fatty when goes back to Singapore!!!!!
SAVE ME!

Oh gOSh! RIP!

2007-10-25T07:39:00.000+08:00

Oh gOsh! My blog seems like had been resting in peace for around 2 months! I didn't update my blog, neither did anyone tag... haha! Hm... Life in Oslo is fun! haha! Well well... The reason for not updating my blog is not because I'm busy with my studies, but, busy slacking!
Up till now, I still cannot figure out why am I so idiotically busy with! haha! But, I'm Busy!! I feLt that I'm sO busY! haha!!
Hm... At least, I tried my best to upload my photos ASAP onto my photo album... http://fenfen.myphotoalbum.com... hehee!
Well... Currently, the time difference between Singapore and Norway is 6 hours... Which means, now in Norway is 2am... But in Singapore, is already 8am! BuT! BUT! BUT!! STarting from 28 October 2007, it will be a 7 hours differences.... That is... Here is 2am, but Singapore is already 9am! arrrhhh!!! will I lose track of time when I go back to Singapore? hehe! Hope not...
The sky here gets darker and darker faster everyday... Get to see less bright day light... PLus, my room lighting sucks! EeeEeeEEEEEE!!! Machiam I'm studying in the dark!! hahaa!
Lastly for today's blogging, I wan to declare that, I REALLY MISS MY FAMILY AND MY BUDDIES IN SINGAPORE!!!

Haha! Long time...

2007-09-07T03:21:00.000+08:00

Wow! Quite a long time didn't update my blog... Well.. Cuz I'm too busy! Haha! Busy with... PLAYING!! ENJOYING LIFE!!! HAHA!!!
Hm... Had already started school for 3 weeks.... Haven't really start studying yet... But, gonna start soon... hehe! Hope I will...
Anyway, I had my photos uploaded to http://fenfen.myphotoalbum.com
HAVE A LOOK! Still uploading... hehe! After uploading the photos, I will go and upload the videos we took too! But, need to select lah.. So, need some time... hehe! This two days addicted to the taiwan drama, Why Why Love... Hehe! But, finishing soon! Yahoo! Can start concentrate in studying liao... hehe!

GRAB!!!!

2007-08-22T12:27:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, we intended to go to the supermarts in Ulleval Station to have a look and get some of the stuffs such as potato salad as it is cheaper there(ICA) during our previous visit. We went over to the supermart, REMA, first as we didn't go in before to have a look. After that, we went over to ICA, intended to get our potato salad. At the front door of ICA, we saw a poster saying " bla bla bla -40%".. As usual, we don't understand the language as it is in Norwegian... Haha! Without any EXCITMENT, we went in and get our potato salad... When we shop around for awhile at the frozen food corner, we was wondering why everyone was snatching and grabbing stuffs... Then, we notice the big sign"-40%" in front of us! We clarified with the sales in the supermart and got to know that, everything of Findus brand is going at a -40% off!
The next moment, 3 of us were grabbing and snatching the food we liked! We had a combined wallet to share the grocery money... Not as intended, we took another 300 NOK each to share the food that we gonna buy here in ICA! -.- Actually, we only intended to spend 100 NOK each per week on grocery, which we had already used it and got the stuffs the day before!
But, no choice... This kind of -40% off seldom comes! SALMON!!! ESPECIALLY SALMON!!! Oh gosh! I had never eaten fish since I first landed in NORWAY!!!! Most of the food of Findus is involving fish!!! YUMMY!!!
End up, we spent 680 NOK there! NOt AS EXPECTED! GOSH!!!
But, hope we will have happy weeks with fishes!!!

I miss my grandma...

2007-08-17T01:44:00.000+08:00

Finally, I'm back from Sweden... As for those photos taken in Sweden, must wait.. Cuz, my camera spoilt.. All I depends on my friends.. So must wait to get from them... I went to Goteborg and Stockholm... Not a bad place to visit.. =)
Suddenly, I remembered the day when my grandma did facial... She was so eager and excited about doing facial... She tried very hard to get up the bed in the Beauty Salon and she was eagerly waiting for my ah yi to help her do facial... Days after doing facial, she kept on saying, her face become so smooth...! haha! I miss her badly....

I LOVE MY DAD!!!

2007-08-12T15:01:00.000+08:00

hehe!! I love my dad alot!!!!!!! He very kanchiong when I'm here... haha!!! He did alot of things for me, and I felt so touched!!! haha!!! Love him!!! hehe!!!

Well.. Anyway, for the few days in Oslo, we had been searching for cheap food and finally we cooked it ourselves! haha! The day before, we had ramen... And for yesterday dinner, we had curry!!!! Wow!!! I missed my dad's curry!!!!!

HAHA!!! See!! The 3 cook are here!! hehe!! We took this photo before trying the food! But, it is really delicious...!! LOVE IT!! COme here.. I get to cook... Travel, go market, everything without my papa... haha!!! Well... Consider a very good training programme? haha!!! Today, I'm leaving to Sweden! Wow! For 5 days!!! WIll be back on 17th Aug! haha!!! Wait for the photos! haha!!!

NORWAY!!! ExpenSive!!!

2007-08-10T03:19:00.000+08:00

Finally got my internet connected.... Since I arrived in Tuesday, a series of unfortunate events happened on me... First of all, my luggage lost in transit... That really made me panick like idiotically mad! I thought I will never get to see my luggage ever again! The first thing I felt was, lost.... After that, I thought that the 2 long sleeves clothes I put in my hand carry could actually let me survive happily (at least...?) till I get my luggage back... But, Oslo is not as cold as I thought... It was as warm as Singapore... Which made me felt like a roasted wet pig (Cuz I sweat like mad!)!!!! When we got to the hostel, everything was consider quite (I guess so...) smooth... When got into the room, I was thinking, die... I am going to die of heat stroke in Oslo! The room has not fan at all for ventilation... And at the time when I got into the room, the sun was blasting directly into the window...!
After having a look at the room I got, me and my friends, Zhi Jian and Jie Ying, meet and went to IKEA... At first, we thought that the IKEA in Oslo will be cheaper than Singapore as Sweden is juz beside it... But, EVERYTHING WAS EX!!! EX!!! EX!!!!
I spent 637 NOK juz to get a table lamp, a pillow (smaller in size compared to Singapore's... It is square in size.. weird!), a very small bolster (cuz normal size one very ex... But, their normal size bolster is still shorter than Singapore's), a blanket, a set of bed sheet (cuz my luggage lost.. No choice.. -.-), a very translucent curtain, a very shallow bowl, plate, a pair of fork n spoon, a towel, a cup... I think that's all... haha!!
I had to carry all this on my shoulder, all the way from IKEA, which is not very near to my hostel, back to my hostel! I'm proud of myself! haha!
After putting our IKEA stuffs in the room, we went to the super mart located in the hostel compound, and bought some food... Well... You won't know how ex the food here is!
It is really true that Norway is considered as the highest living standard country in the world! Almost everything I can buy in Singapore, is 2X or more expensive than SG!!!
Who say Salmon is cheap in Norway?!?!?! BULL SHIT!!! THEY ARE EXPENSIVE!!!!
I CAN SAY, I HAD NEVER SEE ANYTHING CHEAP IN NORWAY UP TILL NOW!!!! Chocolates are expensive too... You name them, they have them, and they are ex... haha!!!
After that, came back to hostel room, can't use laptop and internet, cuz, they dun provide lan cable, which I felt is stupid, and they dun even sell it anywhere near the hostel.... And also, I don't have the travel adaptor for use in Norway... Their ones is super special... You can check online and see...
Well.. Above all the incident, happened in juz a day, which is TUESDAY 11am Oslo time( once I stepped here) till at night 10 plus pm... And, it was still bright! -.-"
As for Wed, we went to Oslo S (a train station) and get our travel concession done.. It cost 430NOK per month... EX!!! After that, we walked around to look for travel plug and also, lan cable.. Finally we found a electronics shop and got the lan cable.. Which is still, EX!!! As for the travel adaptor, the stupid shop assistant told us that we cannot get it in Norway unless travel to the Airport, which MIGHT have... And is EX to travel there... No choice... I approached one of my friends, who I know he will surely help me... And, he said OK to speed post over! Wow!!! Thanks so much!!! After that, we went to ICA, which is a supermart, and buy food again... haha!!!!!!!!!! I'm machiam ah soh in the Supermart, look for the cheapest, and wOw here n there! haha! machiam found gold, which I felt I really found gOld! haha!!! After that, same thing, big bag small bag came back to hostel again... I think becuz of all this carrying stuff exercise, my back kept aching... Hvn't recover till now... But at least, I felt abit homely..? haha!!
Too many things to say leh in order to update till what happened today, which is Thursday!! Ok... to shorten everything that happened on Thursday, the most important thing that happened today is, I FOUND MY TRAVEL ADAPTOR IN A MEGA ELECTRONICS SHOP IN A SHOPPING MALL NEAR OSLO S STATION!!!!! THAT'S WHY I CAN BLOG NOW!!! HAHA!! AND ALSO, ONLINE!! YEHYEH!!!! THANKS TO ZHIJIAN WHO NOTICED THAT THE SHOP DID SELL IT!!! AND ONCE AGAIN, THANKS TO DELSON!!! oh ya!!!!
ONE MORE THING THAT SHOCKED ME TODAY!!!!
To enter the public toilet here in Oslo, it need about SGD 1 plus...

6 More Days

2007-07-31T13:48:00.000+08:00

6 more days and I will be leaving! Yeh! THis few days, I'm busy with packing my luggage... My free allowance is only 20kg... And from the 1st time I packed, which is 24.8kg... Till today, I actually took out alot of clothes... Still, is 22.1kg... I cannot take out any more things... die!
For each additional 1kg, I need to pay SGD 63....
Hope they let me goo.... haha!!!

hOw it feels liKe?

2007-07-14T20:08:00.001+08:00

How would you feel if you have to go through the incident you hated most afew years ago now?
How do you feel when you trying to find a LISTENING ear, yet people are giving you comments and making you feel worse?
How do you feel when you see someone you loved is sad, yet you cannot do anything? Really, can do nothing....
How do you feel when you know someone you loved will leave you soon, yet you cannot do anything to let him stay by your side?
How do you feel if you knows that someone you loved need you the most at this period of time, yet you had no choice as you have to leave him soon?
How do you feel?